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...In the Name of ALLAH...


i am sad & frustrated

with time...
with some constructive comments...
with failed plan...
mostly with myself...

I hate my laziness, procrastination, my lack of skills; they make me look stupidly stupid...
I hate it when time outruns me, leaving me all alone behind the red finishing line; it makes me look outdated...
I am stupidly embarrassed when someone commented on me; they meant to advise me but I felt they were sniper bullets shot through & shattered my heart...I'm breaking apart~
I am sad when I looked forward for going to Japan this summer so much, but it's ruined...there goes my chance seeing DBSK live on stage! AAA!! why did I ever searched for their live tour schedule only to finally discover I couldn't go after all?? oh I'm hopeless...

sorry...blame me if those are lame excuses to be frustrated about...
I just want to express some feelings here...
can't help it
T____T


P/S: Hope to claim the Japan trip next winter, with better promises...amiinnn

...In the Name of ALLAH...

sekarang musim orang sakit ke? winter da nak habes pon...
saket demam, saket tekak, saket perut, saket jiwa (aku la tu~)

macam2 saket muncul...
tapi ingatlah, ni semua dugaan Tuhan jer...
DIA uji kita dengan cabaran yg kita mampu hadapi...
so, berbanggalah kalo kita diuji kerna tu tanda ALLAH ingat pada kita...

kepada yg saket2 tu...makan ubat, get a good rest ok!

P/S: To Dla ms. rumet, moga cepat sembuh! fighting2!

...In the Name of Allah...


teringat conversation with housemates ari selasa:
Me: wey, bile kite nak buat snowman ni? snow da tak tebal ni...
Dila: ko tunggu je la mesti satu lagi blizzard datang nanti...

tup2, ari rabu snowstorm datang menyinggah. mmg termakbul kata2 dila. pedih betul muka smlm, lupe bwk muffler lak tu. bila winter mmg terseksa dgn windchill bagai2...tak larat nak redah satu lgi season taun depan.
pikir2 balik, bgus jugak decided tak pegi utah, kat situ kene main snow gak. tapi resultnye tak pegi mane2 la spring break nanti. planning nak pegi michigan, but kene naik bus 2hrs from toledo baru smpai michigan. tak mahuuu naik bus lagiiii......

this is the time to decide *pikir2 smpai trmimpi*... la la la~

...In the Name of ALLAH...

january is coming to its end...

aiyoo!! cepat sungguh masa berlalu...da sebulan rupenye sejak pegi florida dlu...hurmm
bila pikir2kan...ape sahaja lah i've done since 2009 started...
azam tahun baru mcm tak berjalan lagi jer...sigh~

Highlight january 2009:
1) tahun baru doh! usia pun bakal beranjak 1 more number upwards...isk3
2) exams attack bertubi2 sejak abes holiday...adoi
3) lab report + notebook pun nak maen perang2 gak...tsk
4) kkotboda namja introduced me to ss501....cool korean group! ma new leb <3~
5) besday adek2ku + kwn2 sekalian: sapik, tatah, pao, ecahmomo -> Happy Belated Besday korg! cayang korg muah3
6) dikir barat GU unification night...practice, practice...
7) alamak! tiket flight tak beli lagi!! nak pegi Jepun ke nak amik class dlu summer nehh???
8) eboard meeting ..nk titun jap...zZZzz...

haa, lepas ni boleh la buat highlight february laks...krohszzz....

...In the Name of ALLAH...

Oh NO!!!
this week started with me being miserable.
Organic Chem is done. now, it's Immune's turn. next, Japanese midterm.
Ugh!!

Korean's Boys Over Flowers (HYD) only airs 2 times a week.
how am i gonna wait n just wait for 6 days for every 2 episodes!??
epi6, come to me baby~~

oh need good sleep right now. but need to study too!
Oh NO!!!

...In the Name of Allah...

tomorrow's Friday! weekend again. but i have to study. 3 exams next week: Orgo II, Immune, Japanese. Good for me! Yay! (sarcastically)

what is exactly in my mind right now?
1. sleeping
2. rockband
3. planning for summer
4. watching tv
5. jiwangans
6. reading manga
7. watching j+kdramas
8. shopping
9. thinking about some ppl
10. thinking about the future

see? no study comes to mind. adei3. i'm not a good student, sir. i'm no good in here (pointing to my head + useless nafsu) asek nak pikir about useless things jer. ape nak jadik nih!?

ok baru jer pasan i've been tagged again. sigh~
i'll make this one simple.

.the first 7 wishes that comes to my mind.

1) i wish i would be a better person after each day, to be what a khalifah should be.

2) i wish i would get excellent results in every and each exams in each quarters.

3) i wish my life would be perfect without much hassle.

4) i wish i would meet someone my jodoh would be. soon? maybe...

5) i wish i have pintu suka hati doraemon, so that i can go back to my house in malaysia anytime anywhere.

6) i wish i would have twins. identical twins. dgn izin Tuhan....amiin

7) i wish i could sleep, eat, watch Disney channel, play snow, go on roller coaster rides, listen to songs, etc anything i like, without have to bother with study too much! if only....

...In the Name of ALLAH...

this morning jijie looked at me with his sarcastic eyes and said, "Kina! UPDATE PLZ!"

*Eyh jijie, aku update blog tak sampai seminggu lepas kot? ceytt...*

so, becoz of him, i try laa to update pape yg patut.
well, kalo nak update remeh2, busan la kan...
therefore, i wanna list down some things stuck in my mind:

1) days ago, i dreamt someone at RIT jadi 'semacam' with me. he's like...admiring or complimenting me with weird words. horror giler!!! err don't ask me who's that someone la. i won't tell either. mmg korang takkan dapat pikir ape relation die with me. i mean, why him??? adei3.

2) had to perform as marjina during malaysian musical day next april 11. oh noooo!! i so0o gotta miming nanti.

3) planning to go to utah this next break. gonna skiing at a resort at salt lake city, i believe? ntah tak sure katner. topexXx plans to go camping kat yellowstone national park gak. ade old faithful geyser there, niceeee!! but but but, i really wanna go to grand canyon, isk3......

4) i need a game to play. computer game, ok. got bored already with cards, pet society, etc. need something new! fast!

5) i now have a new responsibility. dgn kuasa Tuhan, my name was up for a position in misg. subhanallah, cemane bole jadik camtu. tapi, peluang nak berubah ke arah lebih baik bukan datang golek2. so everyone, pray 4 my best k!

6) tgh geram gedik2 kat someone. ooo, da ada 'toy' baru da tak ingat orang lain da? haish...

7) really mad at israel's ground war at gaza skrg nih. diorg ingat dunia nih diorg yg pnyer? bom orang sesuka ati?? Islam menggalakkan kedamaian, so tak bole lepaskan kemarahan membuak2 sgt kat sini. but, i really wanna see they go down with their so-called country, deep down to jurang laut yg paling dalam kat Mariana Trench tu ha. tak yah wujud da pon takpe. huhu. May ALLAH help us all to fight this war!!!

alhamdulillah, perut da sgt kenyang after makan ayam briyani dila masak tadi, so mata da agak berat ni.

ciao dlu!

1. What's your ambition?
first of all, to be a good person + muslimah. next, to be a anak solehah to my beloved parents. then, to be someone successful in my life as maybe a biotechnologist? Insha-Allah...

2. Who is more important for you. friend or boy/girl friend?
buat masa sekarang, of coz friends are more important. in case if i already got someone special, urmmm...ntah la tak reti nak bayangkan lagi. him maybe... =)

3. How often do you think of commiting suicide?
commit suicide?? ntah macam tak penah trpikir pon...kalo syahid tu ade la jugak...even though pnah trpikir nak buat extreme-SaW-thingy bila sakit sgt2...haha! *kalo tak paham, tanya sape2 yg pnah dgr cemane aku describe*

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
confidence ea...tak cukop kot. sbb tu la asek risau tak kene masa jer. but tgh berusaha overcome nervousness + increase confidence by trying new things. latest example: confidence kat tmpat tggi + extreme speed brjaya dipertingkatkan after naek roller coaster kat florida. 1st time naek tu woo!

5. How many babies do you want?
4 maybe...kalo diizinkan-Nya, nak kembar...ehehe...tapi ikut rezeki la kan...anugerah Tuhan...amiinnn...!!

6. Favourite perfume/fragrance?
urm...no particular favorite. right now tgh guna miracle lancome...suka jugak vera wang kot...ape nama ntah aritu curik2 bau kat airport...best!

7. Whats your goal for this year?
to be a better person compared to previous years.
to get excellent results for every and each quarter, 4.0!!
to get a baby kot...if only could happened la kan!!

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
eternity tuh tak la...but love till death sets us apart tu percaye sajer...but really, i pray to God may i get that pure real beautiful love in my own life...amiinnn!

9. What's a perfect partner to you?-list 10
erk...
tak jumpa lagi, so......

tgk la cemane orangnye kalo da jmpe jodoh nanti...dtg la ke kenduri saya yerk!!

10. What feeling to you love the most?
when these moments to muhasabah diri + munajat...rasa tenang jer...huhuh. oh satu lagi, bile dpt makan ape yg diidamkan! yummy...

11. What is your bad habit?
regret over some things i did...contohnye after shopping berabesan beratus2, rasa macam nak pegi return sume barang2 tuh...haish

12. Is there anything you want to tell people that hates you? Is there?
i'm sorry for everything i've done to you. if there's any mistake btwn us, please forgive me. i hope we could say even 'hi' again. so, we're cool now??? *ayat last tuh maen2 jer!*

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
of coz!! friendship is like a flower blooming out of my bouquet of life. kalo layu satu, rosak la rupa bouquet tu nanti huhu...

14. Describe yourself?
me is me. ntah la susa do nak describe diri sendiri. lagi senang cite psl movie star drpd diri sendiri. so, i'm a sentimental person la, suka jiwang sorg2...kdg2 if you're lucky, you can see my childish side. most ppl said i looked mature + garang. the truth? mature la sgtttt......garang tuh, g la tanya my adek2, diorg la slalu nampak this side of me kot...haha! ksian diorg. oh, based on personality test francis bagi some months ago, i'm a free spirit person. so, cpt bosan dgn satu2 benda...betol. that's one thing aku br prasan about myself. wow...

15. What do you crave the most currently?
oh banyak sgt. kalo most tuh, teringin sgt nak balik Malaysia jmpa family + zufairy and then maen rides kat genting highlands!! tak sabar nak summer time!

16. What's currently on your mind?
currently? after abes soklan2 ni, nak masak something. lapao giloz...

17. What would you really like to do, like right now?
urm...makan la kot.

18. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
10 years ea...ntah i'm not alice cullen so tak dpt tgk future...heh. but i hope i would have get married at that time + have children + have own career + establish successful life of my own and family...amiinnn lagi...

19. What do you hate the most?
my private time kene kaco!!

20. Who else do you want to answer these?
sape2 jer la yg berkenan nak jawab. penat do!

sekian time kaseh...