...In the Name of ALLAH...
Kebelakangan ni, terasa macam ada mild-medium earthquake berlaku in my life, dari segi mental, physical, emotion. Alhamdulillah, spiritual tak tergoncang sangat. 2-3 hari ni, badan macam nak demam + sakit tekak yg amat (tak sukenya summer USA ni huhu). Emotion pulak lari bila memikirkan course ChemSep summer ni bakal membahagiakan or men'doomed'kan Cgpa. Mood pun melayang2 balik ke malaysia, nasib baik tak homesick lagi je. Harapnya immune system cepat sembuh so that risk nak kena swine flu tu low. Doakan yg terbaik for me, ye rakan2...
9:38 PM |
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It's too devastating...to let go of beloved things, feelings...
it's painful to imagine, what if I can never replace the beautiful items I have now??
I still don't know... =(
2:14 PM |
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...In the Name of ALLAH...
Memory...
...priceless treasure for human beings. Who cannot live with it? No matter long or short term memory, we thrive to remember. Reminiscing beautiful memories, we smile and laugh. Remembering ugly ones, we think it over...and even cry. That's how we live, right? Every time a wonderful event occurs in our life, we always wanna preserve them in whatever forms of convenient stuff for future momentous recollection. Pictures, videos, poems, diaries, DVD, and most importantly, in our own mind. ALLAH has specially created mind, a unique gift to us humans, to differentiate right and wrong, to make decision in life, to think how to survive, to serve HIM as khalifa.On the other hand, ugly memories, no one wanna think about it. They hurt so much, sometimes use up our energy just to go through with it. People said we live to forget, yet we also forget to live. Tak salah kan ingat semula bad memories; they might hurt us all over again, but we learn from the best and worst. Moga taklah pisang berbuah dua or tiga kali. We learn to be stronger, how to survive in cruel world (It's really painful, but that's why I could live till now). Some even mengabadikan pengalaman sedih masing2 in songs. That way, we could learn from others' as well... I just finished watching a Japanese series [Zettai Kareshi], about an android falling in love with a human girl. A robot can never has a true heart or an ego, apatah lagi memory. I'm not going to talk about this series here, just wanna share some of the scripts:[Q: You're a robot, you never have a childhood memories, right?
A: Yes, I never have one.
Q: That's sad, though...]
[Q: To rob away from a robot his emotions, isn't it the same with taking away his life??]
Tu baru robot, kalau manusia camne pulak? Bayangkan what happened bila terlupa some memories, kita ketuk2 kepala, termenung sorang2. Kosongnya hidup bila no memories exist at all. Like an empty eggshell. Fragile and breakable. Look at Alzheimers' patients, they forget most of the valuable memorable experiences they've gone throughout their life. Sedih kan? As observers, we feel sad for them, lebih2 lagi when we're no strangers, we're the one who being forgotten...So, cherish everything around us, value them when they're still in our grasp, in our sight. Also, cherish other's memories of us. Being remembered by others is meaningful and priceless, especially as good person. After we die, after we are long gone from this world...that's the only way we could still live, in their memories...
1:05 PM |
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...In the Name of ALLAH...
This year is my 1st time i'm having summer in USA!Not much comment, though. Chemical Separation class + lab are tough indeed...I work as a Beginning Japanese 1 notetaker right now, MTWR 5-7 pm...it's not hard at all, so sometimes I find daydreaming during the class is relaxing and sleepy...hehe. yeah, kerja tetap kerja, duit masuk Insha-ALLAH...While I'm here, sangat mahu berjalan melancong. But so far, no rezki yet. huhuhu...
Can't wait to go back to Malaysia in 4 weeks! Moga2 tak kena kuarantin at airport, moga2 batuk sekarang cepat sembuh...ameenn...
11:18 AM |
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...In the Name of ALLAH...
May 2009 is ending, today...
there has been a lot happening this month, but i didn't blog much about it, ね？ほんとうにごめんね。。。currently i'm very much into Japanese, unfortunately i don't have a partner to talk with right now bcoz ecah has gone back to malaysia this morning...oh malaysiaaaa~ ok ok in another 5 weeks!so, what are the highlights of this month? let's see...
(+) end of Spring quarter =D(+) end of nightmarish grip of Organic Chemistry!(+) got jobs for Summer & Fall quarters already...alhamdulillah(+) arrival of J-star (+) endless obsession to my KJJ & tvxq(+) sweet 21 to ME! i'm old already...(-) moving out from Park Point(-) Midwest '09 was cancelled(-) because item above, my California trip is cancelled too(+) spent 3 cool days at Frances & John's cottage(+) first time kayaking (too much of my 1st timer since i've been in USA)(+) i discovered how much i love &
treasure my friends when they were going back home, sent me cute msg from abroad, played games & spent time together
(-) when 1 of us returned to our Mighty Creator on my very own birthdate, the sad news really pinned me down on how small & filthy i am(+) when i cry, i know i have true supporters, thanks a lot!(+) all these (+) & (-) combinations made me stronger to live another day......Thank you ALLAH, thank you friends, thank you love...
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