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...In the Name of ALLAH...

"my NYC trip is already over. my fall break is almost over. what am i gonna do from now on??"

those're my internal screaming right now. aha...don't believe them. i still have my twilight series to focus on. actually, i am a little disturbed about something. it always has, but this time it's different. it's like a wind of change rushing over my whole body, anxiety got it's playground here. something's in my mind and i couldn't get it out. i don't know exactly how to react to this news, yet i am aware i should never. 

okay, don't ever think about it.

period.

...In the Name of ALLAH...

i really feel bad for my mistakes in managing my own life. i hate it when i got wrong date. i hate to turn other people down. i hate it when i follow my weak side instead of letting the strong side forces my body to fulfill my promise. 

i didn't go to Tamrin like i mentioned in some entry below. i'm so sorry to everyone involved in my stupidity, i couldn't make up my words. i hope i would meet all of you again maybe next year, maybe in Malaysia, or anywhere ALLAH allow us to. i miss you my friends, whom i met at Muktamar 2007/08, whom shared the fun and happiness together during our roadtrip. not to forget, new friends as well whom i supposed to meet here and there.

sorry for everything...

may ALLAH bless you always...

P/S: NYC updates? hurmm...go read pao's.

...In the Name of ALLAH...

i am deeply in love with twilight saga.

i know...this entry means nothing since everyone is obsessed with same thing too. but hey, i don't care. hence, this is merely an excuse to post a new entry *shrugged*

after the Twilight trailer was out, my heart jolted. i was really excited to watch the movie itself. on the premiere day, oh yes we were out watching it...with no high school kids screaming around whenever Edward Cullen appeared on screen *this is a true experience of some Stevens' at NYC* that's very good then, i had my own privacy to analyze the story plot without any brief knowlegde of the novel. and the obsession began...

i desperately read tira's twilight book during our NYC trip. i read it in PATH train, before sleep, wherever i can get my hand on the book. definitely, twilight in book is totally far better and complicated than the movie. lucky i watched the movie first so that i can picture Edward in the form of gorgeous Robert Pattinson with his brilliant eyes...aaawwwhhhhh... because of that, i read at much slower pace than i usually do to visualize the scenes that fit in all actors. awesome description, i could say...since i felt suddenly dissatisfied with the movie which lacked too many cute scenes... sigh~

right now...i have my own first two series, and i am reading New Moon. so far, it's quite dull with Edward's absence *oppss spoiler ahead!* but i'm enjoying the wide acceptance of Jacob in Bella's zombie life. poor Bella, i hate to read and imagine her loneliness at school. so much bitterness to face after half of our life is gone. it's.......too sad.

this new obsession carried me too far at times. i don't know how to describe the effect to my own life. but recently, something has changed inside. i won't admit what is, just feel to mention it here *numbness start to crawl over*

P/S: Pardon my articulate language expression here. Edward tutored me that.

...In the Name of ALLAH...

finally, time for a trip has come. i'm going to NYC tomorrow until next wednesday. it's already time to put away those monsoon emptiness feelings that have haunted me this fall break. when i think thoroughly, it's only 2 weeks holiday but it feels like ....i don't know how to put it into words. so exhausting. so empty. 

i can't wait for woodbury shopping. can't wait for the view of statue of liberty. can't wait for central park's lepaking. plus, time to dress up glamorously. then, after NYC...i'll be going to Tamrin at PennState starting Nov 27 in a roadtrip, and hopefully be back in RIT more than 6 hours before first class in winter quarter. 

I admit this upcoming week would drain my energy so much by only the train & car trips. not to mention, the various activities i would be doing there. but...this is the only time for me to escape to other places after being stucked here in cold snowy boring old rochester town *toooo many adjectives to describe my exact condition here* sigh~ looking forward to wonderful trips in NYC & Pennstate...

after this break, i wouldn't have much time to play rockband 2 anymore. gonna miss rockband too much! gonna miss fun we had together. gonna miss them. good times.

robert pattinson + kirsten stewart

btw...i watched Twilight movie tonight. it's very.......affectionate. robert pattinson a.k.a. edward cullen absolutely drugged me with his mysterious beautiful eyes. those dreamy eyes...i think they would keep invisibly staring at me for quite a long time. they're very ....deliciously delicious!! haha, plz don't misinterpret my meaning here. thinking of reading all four twilight series already. 

...In the Name of ALLAH...

madness!!!

I got a new crush already. oh no. 

pao! i got one! hehehe let's see what awaits for you this break =P

...In the Name of ALLAH...


it's snowing again...
yet,it's hot rockin' mood today! YEAH!!!

went to naje's place with pao, ecah, manche & adam with the intention to conquer the rockband 2. well, we're not coz the freshmen were there too. but, we got to play A LOT of songs first before the cute lil' freshmen got their turns. hehe sorry guyz, we're so crazy abt this thing! afterlife + monsoon are my fav! i got to polish my guitar skills for hard level, and later i'll try expert. we'll have the battle together later, taufixx! i achieved 80-95% for most songs i played... yay! love it!

then, we played singstar. i had battles with pao, shah & taufixx. i won all of them! yet, it's my first time...hehehehe... singstar not bad, i love to sing but for my own fun... la la la la~

but, when there's fun, there'll be also spoilers. haih. and i'm the one who initiated them! oh gosh, so embarrasing! for those who were there, plz plz plz don't ever ever ever remember those!

really, i had lotsa fun tonight. thanx guys for the crazy stuffs we done together!

...In the Name of ALLAH...


i dunno what to write. i dunno what to do. i dunno what to see.
i hate it when i dun have anything to look forward.

oh i forgot! NYC trip! well, i've been there 2x already. i much more look forward for a new foreign place to visit actually. florida will be in winter...sigh...
BUT! i would make sure our NYC trip would be a fabulous one! prepare to be gedix + glamorous gurls~ *pao, ecahmomo, tira*

maybe i'm kinda homesick right now. without anything to concentrate on. no book, no homework, no assignment, no EXAMS! being like this brings back an awful lot of past memories to my mind & maybe to my eyes too...huuuu...

am i pathetic? sigh

P/S: rockband tomorrow pao!

...In the Name of ALLAH...

finally, i finished my new template. omg i really need to take web design/developing course. it's kinda tough to understand technology coding language, yet it's fun! cool...

hope u guys like it. if NOT?? nevermind, everyone learns from mistakes & weaknesses =)

 

..In the Name of ALLAH...

reminds me to zufairy *tisk3*

Now that the break is here, I really don't have specific activity to do... *sigh~* So far, i've accomplished some top things in my to-do list: rockin' with Rockband 2, slumber party with da gurls, getting my own study desk & some other new stuff...hehe. but buying those stuff had dragged down my account balance quite a lot...huu~ cepat la elaun masukkk! >.<

my goal is now to finish my cross-stitch within this week b4 i go to NYC this saturday. i need to! and i will! i'll show you how it look after it's done *lol it wouldn't be so good, so just prepare yourself*

...In the Name of ALLAH...


Sesungguhnya ALLAH Maha Besar, Maha Adil.

Self-reflection: I should never forget the Power above can show me how tiny i am, how powerless i am compared to Him. But i know i can be powerful within my own self, to be a strong muslimah & a noble servant. you're not a quitter when you quit to be one.


Summary of Reflection: Usaha la setakat mana trmampu, then tawakkal kpd-Nya. Don't forget to pray to Him. Insha-ALLAH He will help us as much as we help ourselves to achieve our dream.

Result: Alhamdulillah i got a very satisfying GPA for this fall quarter!

Speech: Thank you so much to dearest roommate for her motivation to keep going on and take the finals, to precious housemates for bearing with my stressed screamings during studying, to beloved friends for sharing your deep knowlegde during study group, to instructors for teaching me wonderful things!

i *heart* u guyz!!

now......FALL BREAK TIME! Slumber party tonite! >_<

...In the Name of ALLAH...


before someone urged me to update this, i'll do it first.

tomorrow's the start of FINAL WEEK for RITians. OMG. i have 3 finals: 2 on tuesday, 1 on thursday. some other ppl *u know urself* have only 1, maybe 2...and then free after tuesday. not me obviously ~sigh~

i know the fact above. yet, i'm still wandering around my imeem playlist...and got flying away with this new cool song first time i've ever heard.

"Not Ready for Goodbye"

somehow...it reflects something happened 2 years ago...
haha!
okay need to stop.

ciao!


P/S: Good Luck for all RITians and everyone else who have exams around the corner. May Allah bless you guys always, and may all your dreams come true...

...In the Name of Allah...


urm...

dunno what better title for this entry...bcoz someone asked me to post a new entry. about tonight. heh sweet niblets.

well...this one is for you...

we had a great conversation tonight. over skype with one-sided webcam. he claimed he didn't have webcam so........heh. xpela. urmm...then we chatted, chatted & chatted. he sounded quite different, he's sick. haha! tu laaaa tak suke amik ubat! LOL.

here's a note for you: 'teman sejati' over here suro makan ubat but if orang tu tak nak follow advice, so takpela kan...i tak kesah pon heheheh

oh btw...alang2 da open a new entry...just wanna share...today i went shopping again! haha so sweeetttt...i bought lots of item i really craved for! SrooOooNokkkk!!*menjerit sekuat hati within myelf >___< * me, dila & muni went to Red Lobster and had a wonderful meal of shrimps. the world of shrimp. until i feel dizzy when thinking about shrimp again. huuuu~~~ but really, the meal was awesome. need to go there again next time =)

urm...what more? i'm writing this while calling mama. hehe also sharing2 everything matters in life between me & mama. cool. miss my mama. miss my love too. hope you are pink in health & grow fatter & cuter day by day over there~ muah3.

need to update my new photo album. yippieeee my love's pic also in here.


~oh so happy day~

...In the Name of ALLAH the Almighty...


i'm in no mood of elaborating the details of our Halloween party nite at Mior & Asip's...moreover, everybody has talked about those in own blogs *sigh* so i'll just upload some photos.

well people said, a picture worth a thousand words...pictures explain everything...


comment them yourself....

...In the Name of ALLAH the Almighty...


Halloween nite. nice party at Mior & Asip's house. very cool decorations, sound effects, food *eventho i ate little* and kewl costumes! all guests came with own themes & costumes. love them all!

need to update later with pics or descriptions.

ciao!