...In the Name of ALLAH...


Winter break with another 5 days. At times like this, the urge to do things I like really is a ferocious attack, but as usual I don't manage to do everything perfectly as I wish. Too much nafsu in a female, as we can see. I have a loooong must-to-do list, meaning here a list of important things: study Japanese, study for Art class, study for next exams. I would encounter with the bolded word more often from now on. Also an in-class presentation about a Buddhist deity, Yakushi Buddha (?). The course is an Art class, but strange enough, I'm learning about Buddhism, Confucianism and a lot other religions (except Islam?). Uhuh...

I'm developing a high interest into Korean language here. Am watching a lot of YT videos, all concerning Korean this and that. Poor my Japanese, after my JPNL minor has finished, I really should take another class for a good practice but Advanced course is too hard! T___T

I haven't upload any picture from south/midwest roadtrip yet. Lot of pics to choose from. Maybe later. Sorry for those trip members whom are still waiting for the not-so-nicely-taken pics, haha.


for a tease pic. not in the pic: lan & aiman. sorry guys!

P/S: More stories of the roadtrip are revealed in pao's blog :)

...In the Name of ALLAH...

Alhamdulillah, just arrived home safe and sound from 9-day winter roadtrip:
Rochester - Ohio - Atlanta - New Orleans - Memphis - St. Louis -
Urbana-Champaign - Rochester


Too tired right now...just wanna sleep............
X__x

...In the Name of ALLAH...

ALHAMDULILLAH!
All praises to HIM, for everything He prepares for us.

A phrase that made my heart skipped a beat: "...I am pleased to inform you that you have been selected to participate in the KIT 2010 summer exchange program." A dream comes true! Happy to read it, nervous (or excited?) to think whatever is awaiting for me ahead. Many stuff lingers in my head for now, even exam materials not enough to cover up the heavy clouds. I am making the decision and hope it will be the best for me.

Thank You ALLAH!~

...In the Name of ALLAH...

I love Korean and Japanese languages very much. I take time to watch dramas, listening to songs, practicing in classes and with friends. Learning new languages is not easy, but it would not be too difficult if we keep practicing. That's the essence of learning foreign language.

Just feel like sharing my top list of Korean and Japanese drama/movies:
Korean:
- My Girl
- Spring Waltz (awesome OST!)
- Goong
- 18vs29
- My Lovely Samsoon
- Jewel in the Palace
- My Little Bride

Japanese:
- Love Letter
- Hana Yori Dango + sequels
- Long Vacation
- Tada Kimi wo Aishiteru
- Nodame Cantabile
- Proposal Daisakusen

This list should be longer, but enough for now. I love OSTs for these shows, they're too wonderful. Watching fictions somehow makes me happier, as if I can escape from reality to stop and enjoy another world from a particular perspective. Sometimes, I feel that immersing myself into dramas is better than keeping up-to-date with depressing current news in real world... at least they're not real. You can say, "What's the use to run away from reality? It will catch up to you in no time." You're right. You certainly can argue with me about this, well this is how I handle my stress. I get a point here, right? Guess so...*shrugs*

Can't wait to know the result for KIT application in few weeks, wonder if I get to go to Japan under the ticket of summer study abroad, or not? For you who read this, please PRAY for
the BEST for me. Thank you! ^.^

...In the Name of ALLAH...

it's 1.27 am. yes, tomorrow is the 1st day of 2009/10 winter quarter, and yet here i am.

just for a short update. Alhamdulillah, fall quarter turned out to be a good one for most of us here. very much struggled to achieve the best, and we did it. congratz to you my friends! may winter quarter befriend us as well.

fall break was a little bland, but it's nice to have several celebrations and gatherings:
1st, Diyana & Umar's wedding. it's indeed beautiful moment, congratz for your wedding!
2nd, boston-nyc-woodbury premium outlet roadtrip. got to hang out with the girls + guys.
3rd, jamuan makan2 for Eid Adha + Momo's 2nd birthday. Meoww...
4th, rockband hours at parkpoint & Muni's house. uuu~

speaking about break, hey...we're having 2-week winter break in 3 weeks! still, i don't know where to spend it yet. either cruise to bahamas, roadtrip to anywhere hot, or california? choose one.
so, 'kay i'll be considering it tomorrow.
good night ms. bloggie.

...In the Name of ALLAH...

It's Final week, and today is already Thursday. But, I'm still not getting my freedom out of this fall quarter. Sigh. Tomorrow, genetics paper will end it for me. Praying for the best after the turned-out-to-be-not-so-good genomics this morning. Sigh.

I feel like writing so just read whatever junk/idea? I'm typing in here.

I used to be an observer. Sometimes I did not feel affected so much when it comes to others. Also, I was one of many who made accusation to people. Bad, huh? That's how I used to be, I believe. Right now, I often prefer to put myself in someone's shoes, to get the feeling and sensation by being him/her/them. As an outsider for personal or business affairs, we can simply lift our finger and point out to this or that person, blaming the guilt onto them. But are we really sure if we're right, and they're wrong? Business deals with a world too diverse, too many people involved, money matters cannot be left out. We say they're greedy, sick, terrible, but that's how world revolves. maybe they're not completely at fault, maybe it's because bad timing? Oh, now I get it how lawyers or judges go through everyday dealing with their jobs. Uhuh, I don't know where is this going though. I'm just trying to say in simpler words, I am being victimized by entertainment industry!! AAaaaa!~

Study. NOW!

...In the Name of ALLAH...

In the middle of lab notebook-finishing & studying, as usual, surfing for trivial and useless movies/manga synopsis, youtube-ing and wiki-ing are my habits. As for today, I just had this urge to log in into friendster, and suddenly I got a rush of feeling of something missing... (sorry for the long introduction)

I went through several hundreds of comments, awhhh-ed upon reading many cute greetings from old friends, intrigued by a number of unknown friends, and such. Honestly, my first intention was to search for some particular special comments sent by someone few years ago, and now I got more than 2300 comments, without any shortcut button to lead me straight to those old comments (maybe at locations 2000++). Really, I need to click 'next' for the subsequent 200++ pages??? So you can guess I never succeed to get to the comments. Too bad.... I really want to read them again >___<

Maybe that's why I don't use friendster anymore, it's too inconvenient...
However, I got to admit, "friendster is too lonely, but full of memories..."


- now get back to study, girl!
- X___X

...In the Name of ALLAH...

Due date for KIT-IJST application is 2 days from now.
So nervous! I am still in the middle of finishing & touching up my essays, completing anything I need to before submission time. Being stuck in last week before the long suffering FINAL week (which is next week) is really stressing me out. Lucky, genomics presentation has finished, no more genetics quiz. What's left? Japanese final paper tomorrow, another 4 papers next week! *sigh*

Sorry, digressing from the title. So, what's up with "Japan & Me?" It's a fancy title, but sometimes it's important to show how intimate I feel towards this favorite nation.
Honestly, I don't know what is the magnet that attracts me so much. I love too many elements of Japan. Food, music, drama, traditional clothes (kimono, yukata), maybe Harajuku stuff too, unique culture and arts, amazing views of old temples and shrines in the middle of green parks and lake. Its people? Of course, that's why I "fall in love" with them, but not in the sense of lovey-dovey thingies. Their discipline, attitude, respectful behavior make me want to be one of them. I admit, not every Japanese has those good qualities in them, some do show arrogance and ego too. Well, generally, yes. Those are why I like Japan.

Sounds too cliche, right? Hey, I'm not crushing on this or that cute Japanese guy or whatsoever, nor any hot Japanese actors in any J-drama (anyway, I'm watching Korean dramas right now). It's just that...I feel the need to justify my love towards Japan. It's too overwhelming, I think, and I don't know why. どうして?どうして?どうしてきみをすきになってしまったんだろう??

Effects of watching too much Japanese variety shows, maybe...?? *sigh*



"i love you deeply, unconditionally,
forever and beyond..."


awhh...i love u too!!!
>___<

...In the Name of ALLAH...

I might regret this...but deep down I know I should do it.
Let me put this to an end already.
It hurts. It would not bring me to anywhere, just in my own fairy tale world.
So, just snap it out. And, bring back the reality of life.

One thing only, I would always keep jstar around.

...In the Name of ALLAH...


Someone must stop this nonsense! Please, right here right now!
I can't bear it anymore, seeing them in pain makes us cassies deeply hurt as well. Too much poisonous words, too much emotions being risked. Enough is enough. I don't want to side with either party, JYS or SM. Just one thing I hope and pray, no internal fight please.
No matter what is the court decision will be, please stay as ONE.
Stay as brothers. Stay as who you are.

As we grow older, we will always remember you as our motivation, our PRIDE.
Even though you are not on stage anymore, you will stay in our hearts, forever love.

...In the Name of ALLAH...

It's incredible to think that life is full of surprises, no matter it is pleasant or makes you want to hurl. You can never predict what has been chosen for you, but you can always change whatever you have power to.

Look at your surrounding, what do you see? Ask people around, what do they think about you? Sometimes, the answer is certainly not what you are waiting for, but honest responds can always lead to better progression. Accept life with open heart, and be fully ready for any sudden change if need to occur.

I'm saying this because, in this few years, I've been avoiding several things in my life. I turned my back on problems in relationships, never wanting to remember the pain again. I ran away from people, intending to keep my thoughts and talks from them. I've been away from my real self for years, trying to develop a new me inside the same body throughout a number of obstacles.

However, not everything I predicted to be are right. Yes, some of the results helped me to stand on my own feet, to survive hardships, to be stronger than who I was. But, there are hidden circumstances of being a stronger person. You have to go through people, yes, variety of people. More emotions are involved. And to be strong, sometimes you forget how to be fragile. In the end, it hurts yourself. It feels like you are betraying your own self, the real you inside.

These words are a bit cheesy. Pardon me for that. I'm just trying to organize myself, to prepare for some major changes in just a matter of time from now.
What do you guys think?
It is indeed the charms of life...is it not??

...In the Name of ALLAH...

i'm entitled to:

1) HIS ALMIGHTY's creation
2) my parents' child + my family's cool member
3) a fragile soul
4) a quiet person
5) a sleeping volcano
6) a little kid trapped in an adult-ish world
7) a princess wannabe in this harsh reality world
8) a die-hard fan of my beloveds <3
9) someone who behaves like changmin in particular occasions
10) someone who dreams to meet a prince charming like joongie
11) someone who has been wanting to have best friends like YooSu
12) someone who wants to be protected by a person like uknow
13) an ordinary girl who knows most of dreams above can only be dreams...but who knows??
14) a someone who will try her best to fully live her life till the end, on the blessed and righteous path to HIM...insha-Allah...

omg

...In the Name of ALLAH...

O.M.G.

seriously, my otak dah sangat2 terpusing sana-sini. Esok ada midterm Japanese. Cakap tentang Japan, tak sabar nak plan untuk ke Japan next summer, under KIT summer study abroad program. OMG...macam tak percaya. JOE, jom!!

tambah memeningkan kepala, my beloveds' lawsuit case hasn't resolved till now. stress ok. cepat laa K-Court buat keputusan! yang penting, make the wise & just decision! don't EVER break them apart! siap laa SM. memang nak kena!!@?!

adoi lapar. ni la luahan hati perut yang sesungguhnya lapar di malam hari.
okay nak pegi makan.
bye korang.

...In the Name of ALLAH...


Yes! Keep the faith up high everyone.
We surely can do the best in our exams!
Pray and believe in yourself.....


Same things, i pray for my beloveds <3 who are battling their tough moments right now.
To JJ, YC, JS, YH, CM:
I'll always be here as your loyal support base, since you are indeed my loyal bubbly happiness factory.

...In the Name of ALLAH...


It's officially FALL yesterday.
Angin 'puaka' sudah lama bersiul-siulan di celah-celah tingkap yang seinci terbuka, menggegarkan pokok bosau di belakang rumah, dan berorkestra semahu-mahunya bilamana manusia lalu lalang di Gleason Circle dan Quarter Mile.
So, apa lagi, grab your coat, trench coat, peacoat, cardicoat, (petticoat?) and start to wear them. Sila lah ambil iktibar daripada pengalaman saudara Jiji hari ni yang dengan stylonya memakai sehelai sepinggang sahaja (selapis saje la).
Amat sejuk ya kebelakangan ini, tambahan lagi exam week yang UGHHH... makin menurunkan motivasi manusia yang kiasu study. Nampak gayanya, WinTeR is just around the corner...be ready to see white fluffy snowy-mowy turun dari langit tak lama lagi!

Just praying that this cold and ever keep changing weather won't do much harm to us people. Sila jauhi minuman berais bila rasa nak demam *ALERT to athirah* Jaga kesihatan okay!
Jaga diri korang!

...In the Name of Allah...


I have a Genomics exam in 4 hours...
Man, my head hurts...


Actually, I just want to spend a minute to update my bloggie once in a while,
at least 1 entry!

Pray us LUCK and THE BEST OF US! Ameen...
>__<

...In the Name of ALLAH...


It's the 1st week of SYAWAL
but already, i feel that it's been 2 months ago

it's been a crazy week 3 Fall quarter...macam2 dugaan menguji
celah sana, biochem exam said 'hi'
celah situ, genomics 4X repeated lab
celah sini, study tak abes lagi *padan muka sendiri T___T*

as the result?
for biochem exam - ntah la no comment
genetics quiz pun satu lagi...haishh
alhamdulillah, we successfully purified DNA for the 4th try...rasa nak nanges pun ada...
*i'm sooo gonna avoid DNA coded 18.xx lepas ni!*

in the end, shopping jugak jadi pengubat hati
plus, eating!
~(>.<)~

NOTE TO SELF: YOU GOT 2 MORE EXAMS NEXT WEEK, BABE!
(X_X)

...In the Name of ALLAH...


Today is Eid Fitr.
We got a awesome mosome celebration with all RIT Malaysians (except hans...too bad you know) in a quite formal event all evening. In the morning, we had solat sunat Eid Fitr on campus, 'imam'ed by encik Nazrol - nice khutbah la bro! Next, we started the celebration around noon, with all food we could get hands on - nasi minyak, rendang ayam, nasi impit, kuah lodeh, ayam merah pedas, kuah kacang, roti jala, laksa sarawak, kuih-muih, etc. Best!

Good job to all RIT MySA eboard members, We Did It! To hosts today - tirah & erin - nice work! To multimedia bureaus - muni & hana - i really loveee ur video! To other bureaus that had worked very hard to make this event a huge success - Congratz!

In the evening, we had a photoshoot together. So nice to be together, you know what I mean. Together. Somehow, my eyes were suddenly wet in the middle of happy + annoyed people getting photographed in the direct dusk sunlight. Yes, something irritating did happen. It stirred around my joy feeling and squeezed out the sour juice. Too bad, it was unintentionally, so sorry to everyone if I did ruin your pictures at that time. Maaf zahir & batin.

Hope to see you again during Eid Fitr next year? Maybe??

...In the Name of ALLAH...


Selamat Hari Raya Eid Fitri!

Salam Mubarak to all my friends!

May this Syawal 1430H brings us happiness and berkah for everything we do...ameennn...

...In the Name of ALLAH...

Ramadhan 1430 H is going to end, Insha-Allah esok or lusa.
Could you hear that??
Eid Fitri is knocking on our door.

Tak sangka kan? Ramadhan berlalu almost 30 days tanpa sedar, tup tup it's already Syawal. There are too many things I should do during this sacred month, but I don't. I regret it, big time. I hope everyone's having great moments during this fasting period. I know I do have some weird & lost feelings these few weeks, but I'm grateful...for some reasons.

Let's all pray to The Greatest, may this year's Ramadhan is not our last.
Ameen ya rabbal 'alameen...


Helloooo to my new blog!

I like this blog name better than the previous one,
but I will always remember it
my FIRST blog...

I would edit and set up this blog sooner or later
so bear with me, okay~


...In the Name of ALLAH...

sometimes,
i would laugh at how we first met
at times,
i would miss how we chatted & smiled
now and then,
i would miss looking at your name

i want to think of you,
as footsteps printed along my shore
leaving marks all over the place
but i'm sure,
the rolling waves would wash you away
away from my shore...
called heart

those are history
of the good old days...

sorry, layan perasaan kejap! ^_^

...In the Name of ALLAH...

Dedicated to a cherished friend:

it is the beauty of caring & sharing
it holds us up from falling to the ground,
it wipes away our tears,
it caresses our saddened hearts
what a wonderful moments of sharing

i know it's not that much
but at least we shared a bit of ourselves
i don't expect too much
it's okay if you can't offer any help
it's enough if you can only be a good listener
i'm much grateful that you're here
even it's for a short time

so...
let's enjoy the time we have together
l
et's keep the memories intact in our minds
thanks for everything
i would miss you a lot
when you're gone


...In the Name of ALLAH...

i'm here, back in rochester
Nooooooooooooooo
i need more dose of beautiful summer w/ beloved family

really, this year has been quite tough on me.

many things changed, leading to my own changes. many aspects involved, especially feelings, inner emotions, self strength, social network, etc. it's my weakness, i know. i couldn't pour out my real emotions to others very well, except my own family. that's why it's been very hard for me to go back to USA after such wonderful moments sharing almost everything w/ my parents. i miss mama and babah...

but, don't misinterpret me.

i do have awesome time spent w/ nice people in RIT, high school, ym, etc. plus, i got a new sweetheart, name given Delaila, adding to my other red stuff collection. after all, red is cassiopeia's official color! yay!!
not to forget, i got a new housemate! he’s fat w/ strong muscles. hey, he’s a cat okay. a macho cutie blackish grey cat. Garyyyy!!!
delaila sweetheart

my red collection, apart of others i have

guess who?

tomorrow is monday, means CLASSES! ugh, i'm not ready yet!



as usual, my parents always accompanied me when it is time to visit KLIA airport.
either to meet them or to leave them...
this year's flight back to usa was nicer...
because some other people also came to see me off!

i wanna say THANKS A LOT to:

abg wan, aisyah, aifaa ayla, zaliyatun akhma

i already know my bro would come, but his girlfriend aisyah apparently was kind enough to come along to meet me up for 2nd time. so guys, if everything sails away smoothly, please please please....get married just when i'm back home!

aifaa and akhma, their presences were most welcomed! it's really a pleasant suprise to see them that night. i was very very very happy, at least they cured my homesickness which come earlier than it should be. thanks girls! i've been missing you, love you two!

w/ tokwan & aki

me, family... & future family?

abg wan & aisyah

me, akhma, aifaa

akhma & aifaa

p/s: congratulations for your coming wedding, aifaa! sorry i couldn't come, but i'll try to do something for you!~ ^_^


Esok balik RIT.
Tak nak balik boleh tak?


...In the Name of ALLAH...

sweet dream, dear zufairy

These Ramadhan nights, I've been visited by beautiful dreams. Not the usual merepek and out-of-the-world imaginations. Mimpi kali ini memberi 1001 perasaan yg bercampur-baur, sayu gembira terharu, juga mengimbau kembali kenangan manis masa lampau...

Let me share some of them here:

1st night: Not very sure. As far as i could remember, it was about random friends here and there.

2nd night: I met someone whom was special and spent some time together. Atas bot or kapal kot. Tak sure sgt sebab dah lupa apa jadi after that.

3rd night: I forgot what happened. Something about my camera...I think it was the same like the 1st night.

4th night: I was working at a little Disney's franchise park somewhere in the world (maybe in USA since some people speak English). athirah was my mysterious office partner (misteri sebab die pakai masquerade mask time working). One day, we went out for shopping, then pao, dla and ecahmomo joined us, walking together. Out of sudden, pao cried. She said, "Aku rindu korang semua." Tersentuh ok. (pao, ni mimpi je =P)

5th night: I was in Jenan high school with my whole 0105 batch. We got a somewhat camp with cikgu zakaria, with baju rumah sukan masing2. As usual, the boys very loud and havoc, the girls sgt riang gembira main games and menyanyi sama2. Apa yg comel, their images were same like in those old times (just imagine jijie dulu dan skrg =D). I met and hugged most of the girls (kebanyakannya dah tak jumpa sejak 2 tahun lepas). Bila terbangun je, rasa syahdu sgt. Rindu sgt masa itu...

Like there's a switch controlling memories with friends in my brain was clicked on. It's like bila tiada syaitan2 yg menyelit, these are actually the stuff I am supposed to dream about.Terharu rasanya.


To all my friends here and there, I really3x appreciate our friendship and take care of yourself. Till we meet again some other time, insha-Allah...

...In the Name of ALLAH...
Salam Ramadhan al-Mubarak!

Alhamdulillah, syukur kpd-Nya kerna diberikan peluang hidup hingga ke hari ini, berpeluang menikmati hari-hari berkat Ramadhan kali ini. Some people didn't get the same chance we got, mereka pergi dulu meninggalkan kita. Al-Fatihah buat mereka.

I got 2 weeks to enjoy Ramadhan fasting in Malaysia before going back to RIT this sept 2. Sedih tiba2, terasa homesick sebelum masanya. Yelah, rasanya mungkin tak balik next summer, nak merasa stay kat bumi America in summer time, Insha-Allah.

Reminder to myself: Enjoy life in dunia as much as we can, but remember akhirat too!

It's August 15!
Yay!
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y ZUFAIRY!

~it's your 1st birthday, love! ~

...In the Name of ALLAH...

Kenapa pemandu2 bas express suka pasang vcd lagu gelek dangdut @ Bollywood versi bahasa Melayu loghat Kelate sepanjang perjalanan?

Okay, bukan nak racist bahasa or genre lagu. Dah banyak kali kena camni, tak kira Pahang-Kedah or Temerloh-KL. I know they like the songs very much, tapi bukan semua orang nak dengar dlm perjalanan bas >2 jam. Kami nak rehat or nak melelapkan mata barang sejam dua. Kesian chinese sebelah aisle yg terpinga2 tgk video atas kepala diorg, kesian baby susah nak tidur sepanjang malam. I can handle Bollywood songs, but please the original version ok. Bukan versi Melayu bukak baju sana-sini pastu gelek2 tepi pantai or taman bunga. Satu lagi, tak perlulah pasang dengan volume level >15. Low volume sudeyhh, tak boleh relax woo...

...In the Name of ALLAH...


my future housemate, cik Asmaa' Nafeesa, sent an email to inform me about another new housemate. ingatkan manusia mane la sesat kat RIT tu tapi rupenye, seekor kucing!! yesss, sebagai pengganti cik MoMo yg akan setia bersama mak dan ayahnye nnt. Tak sabar nak serumah dgn seekor kucing. Siap la encik Gary Senor Goober (pnjang + complicated giler name), pembulian akan berlaku serta-merta nanti! tapi kan, err...gary garang tak?

*kena tulis dlm bhs Melayu nih, bahye kalo staff Housing terbace! haha*

...In the Name of ALLAH...


Suddenly the urge to shop attacks me. I wanna buy AE merchandises! I wanna buy this, and that! But most of them are in the USA. Wahhh, don't torture me now!
T___T

...In the Name of ALLAH...


Today i tried one thing...kutip susu getah! Sejak kecik, biasa nampak getah sekerap bertaburan kat kedai2 getah, dgn baunya Masya-Allah...tak mahu cakap. So, terbentuk reflex utk elakkan getah2 sekerap. Ironically, my parents ade kebun getah 1/2 ekar kat belakang rumah. B4, keluar jenguk2 pun hanya utk buang sampah or angkut tanah gembur or 'menikmati' cubitan nyamuk2 kat kebun tu.

This year, my parents jadi perintis utk 1 kaedah baru dptkan getah banyak, GFLAX, yg diperkenalkan oleh Lembaga Getah Malaysia (LGM). So semua proses menoreh dan mengutip getah dikendalikan sendiri by my family.

This afternoon, my mom ajak temankan dia tengok2kan susu yg tengah menitik laju kalau2 melimpah ruah drpd bekas. Tup tup...guruh bergempa dum dam dum dam...tanda nak hujan. Mama terus ajak kumpulkan susu dlm baldi sebelum hujan, punyelah malas rasanya time tu. Tapi bila tuang susu yg putih melepak bak salju tu, "eh, tak la berbau pun, macam susu rendah lemak kat kedai je rupenye." Now that I realized, susu getah hanya akan berbau bila dah beku. Patutlah susu beku yg dikutip my bro busuk je huhu. Suddenly I feel excited...lepas ni nak cuba menoreh la pulak!

Bagi penoreh2 getah sekaliannya, busuk2 tu la duit. Tu la mata pencarian mereka. Now I know, it's real hard to make a true living, lebih2 lagi kat kampung. A reality check for me...

...In the Name of ALLAH...


Alhamdulillah I got my new babe today, thanks to my lovely mom & dad!
gotta learn to use and got control of it a.s.a.p.

it's certainly a disturbing shock to learn that on July 31st, TVXQ's jaejoong, yoochun and junsu filed a legal action against their own management agency, SM Entertainment, in order to terminate their excessively long 13-years contract, due to several disagreement and unfair treatment in their contract. yunho and changmin should really join in, but i can forgive them since they're tied in other contracts which would make things more complicated. Cassiopeias worldwide are in panic attack right now, as to whether TVXQ is disbanding. for years, SM Ent. is very infamous for enslaving and ripping fleshes and sweats out of its artists like once-idol groups, H.O.T. and Shinhwa, had been through during their contracts in 1990's. now, it's TVXQ, SuperJunior, SHINee and SNSD's turn. it's just a month after TVXQ's success fame appearing at Tokyo Dome (for very well-known artists only) as their own stage. please, do not disband, not now.

oh what am i doing...

whoa i can't believe i'm writing about some korean entertainment problematic stuff here. but i love them. so i don't care (miming 2NE1's song for background music - i don't care, eh eh eh eh ehh~...)

...In the Name of ALLAH...


sambil tengah busan menunggu songs downloading from Youtube...tangan pun gatal nak menaip panjang2 sket...jom kawan2, kita merenung-renung... kalo ikutkan, memang banyak perlu direnung difikirkan...everything in life needs reasoning, even though not all happened with a reason (bak kata scriptwriter drama Korea)...i used to be hasty before...well, i still am now...but at least i'm trying to be better...

yesterday my whole family went for a family picnic at Hutan Lipur Lentang, Bentong, ~10km from R&R Genting Sempah. zufairy the baby pun ikut! our 1st picnic together, kira macam our birthday present la (his 1st birthday is coming in 2 weeks!). sayangnya my abang takde, tapi luckily he compensated his absence by balik kampung last week to introduce his 'future bride' to us. whoaaa...tak sangka weyh, dah pandai bawak balik anak dara orang tuuu...moga2 jodohnya datang cepat, but! make sure i'll be able to hadir and sibuk2 like mak kepoh, taknak missed out lagi...



so, on the way pergi, i had a good talk with my parents about my future. nak graduate in 3 yrs? 4 yrs? apa nak buat after that? masters or kerja? seriously, recently those topics made me wonder, lebih2 lagi baru bermimpi about a disastrous graduation. my parents come to USA to see me graduating, but i was actually in the audience sebab tak boleh graduate lagi. my disease in making decision is getting worse. sorry dla, u know me best in this matter, haha.

throughout the talk, suddenly i feel i need to be myself, tak perlu ikut kawan2. apa yang penting sekarang, i desperately need to change many aspects of my life. banyak sangat kelemahan diri yang menggunung. i know i actually can graduate in 3 yrs already, but the problem is myself. i'm not ready yet. not ready to face career field, adult world, etc. my other friends dah planning siap2 sampaikan ke alam perkahwinan, nama anak apa, saving accounts sapa akan pegang...wow, memang advanced. tapi betul la, umur dah menginjak 21 yrs old, semua tu penting kan...

the truth is, i really sayang kawan2 sampaikan kalau boleh taknak berpisah. my mom said kawan2 ni bertukar bila masa berubah. my dad said, kawan skola rendah lain, kawan skola menengah lain, maktab lain, kerja lain. so kawan je dengan semua orang, tak perlu ada kawan rapat2 sangat. my tears welled up bila memikirkan how would my friendship with my current friends turn out in few next years. we'll graduate, separate to different careers, kahwin, bukak business. we won't be the same anymore. uhuhuu, it's hard to talk about these things. i'll put it to a rest for now.
(T___T)

nak tukar template blog, tapi tak paham bahasa html pulak!
berterabur code2 digital ni heh...aduiiii help meee...!!!

...In the Name of ALLAH...


it's 2.40 am...and i'm still not asleep...

i returned home and there they were, mounts of unread emails and notifications in facebook. got tagged in a note from faraway pao..."the girls i miss"...aawwhhhh, somehow i found it hilarious that she missed my unexpected laugh when watching funny videos. i thought it's annoying for some people. LOL. starting from that moment, my heart told me, 'hey, you too miss your friends a lot, don't you'. subsequently, i sent a msg to my best friend, ym msgs to several other buddies, got a long call from old girlfriend. i miss you guys, my dear friends...here and there...

...In the Name of ALLAH...


2 weeks in Malaysia already.

i just went back from summer training camp (STC) at batang kali selangor last weekend, as an ajk. truthfully i didn't have any slight idea how to handle a camp at a campsite/hutan area. pergi ikut flow je la, bak kata orang. sampai2 aje, tengok2 dinner dah tersedia. well, biasa la kan bila makanan sedap dah terhidang depan mata, semangat pun naik la berkobar-kobar. thanks a lot makcik2 pakcik2 catering yg masak + sediakan meals ktorg, cayalah! overall, camp ni berjalan lancar dan dapat respon yg agak baik eventho ada problem datang menjenguk2 jugak. i like dr. adnan's kuliah subuh and tazkirah maghrib. terkesan sungguh la dengan elaboration beliau about ummul-quran which is surah al-fatihah, and kisah para sahahat rasulullah s.a.w. kalau nak cerita kat sini, maaf i didn't remember all details. also, sangat happy with ukhuwah among sisters yg hadir since most dah kenal2 masing2. yg jauh dapat didekatkan, yg sedia dekat makin rapat hatinya, insha-Allah. we played simple games, but really havoc. what best, jmpa geng2 satu kepala korea + jepun, apa lagi tak usah cakaplah. kami serasi bersama. cewahh...

since it's already late for me to go back home on sunday evening after camp, i went back to my uncle's house in puchong, selangor. immediately i sent proposal to some friends for a friendly meet somewhere in kl. discuss punya discuss (sampai credit turun almost rm10...lol), jmpa la khalis fakhirah mior joe yesterday at midvalley. also terserempak with bo0n and nass. imagine this, every 2 hours we looked for food. first, laksa shack (sedap woo laksa johor kat situ), then delifrance (share2 soup + baguette), and finally secret recipe (some had dinner, some had cakes/brownies). really really enjoyed those times la, sangat sedap and full though money pun flowing out like air paip kat toilet the gardens's. got myself a book, The Keeper, at mph. then, got my eyes on this 1 Guess bag, red color. adorable, mior pun approve. but alahaiii...lagi mahal than USA, tapi bila search kat online store takde pulak huhu...

now, back at home in front of my lappie. 103 unread in inbox, and ada news tak best from mara, kena pulak mail academic transcript for summer courses. Allah, lupa!! sigh... then 2 invitations to a summer camp at mersing and a motivation stuff at old school. no confirmation yet, since there would be a family camping trip sometime later. sorry guys, later sikit ok.

thinking on how to spend my time in malaysia efficiently, meaningfully....

...In the Name of ALLAH...


*i dedic8 this entry specially to my dear nephew*

khairien zufairy bin muhammad khaizir
born on August 15, 2008 by 2.2 kg. A newborn that brought happiness and gratitude to my dear family, he's the first grandson, first great grandson for my mom's family side, first son, first nephew. I still remember him being all red, small and fragile baby, that it seemed almost impossible for me to hold him in my hands. 2 weeks, and it was time for me to go back to college. That was last summer.

few hours after born

I spent time to know zufairy by looking at his pictures my bro-in-law sent me through flickr. He's very much growing up with chubbier cheeks, more hair, tahap kecomelan pun bertambah berganda-ganda. My parents told me about his keletah and how peramah he is. zufairy greets everyone in the family every time he sees them, and he already can recognize them. Mama cakap,"Tok Bah favorite dia, suka sangat dia main dengan tok bah." Yep, I agree with that, my dad sangat suka baby. They gave me listen to recordings of zufairy's greetings and babies' talk. Nevertheless, never once I watched a video recording as they never have chance to show me one. I could only imagine how he was... This was before I went back home again this year.

aidilfitri 2008...with his parents

How about this summer, 2009? On the day I reached ground (oh it's been a long flight), I went to my sis's home. And there he was, 11-month baby zufairy! He looked so different from the last time I saw him live. What makes me almost rolling on the floor laughing is that zufairy can "Cakkk..." to us. He tilted his head a little to either side and then, "cakkk!". Maju sungguh, he can imitate things we do, including bunyi ayam berkokok. Adorable! zufairy sangat peramah, suka buat bunyi2 random, and he rarely merajuk or cries out. One of the babies yang sangat baik. Yesterday we dropped at my sis's house again, and at the sight of my youngest bro, zufairy tersenyum lebar and melompat2 girang. Wow, he really likes my bro. And now, he' s starting to know me as well as I am, sometimes I think how unfortunate I am for not getting to watch him growing up in front my my very eyes...but I'm really grateful to be his aunt...ahhh, I'm growing older!!

look! he even shows his cute rabbit teeth there!

~Grow up, grow up into a good and soleh person, zufairy!~

...In the Name of ALLAH...

i'm home...again...
safe and sound...
without any quarantine...

alhamdulillah...it's good to be back at home again...after going through one of the worst flight i've ever been in, layan turbulence jer 2 jam, lucky i didn't muntah2 bcoz of air sickness up there. flight kali ni sangat lah bosan, rasa macam 2 hari in plane. dengan masknye, dengan sempitnye, sabar je la T___T

but, again...it's good to be back in malaysia, on the ground not in the air...not to mention durian, mee hailam, nasi ayam, sirap limau, carrot susu....nyum3 msian food is too good to be true! missing RIT? nahhh...maybe i miss USA a little bit...but hey! let's enjoy MALAYSIA first!



call me meet me! haha

...In the Name of ALLAH...


Kebelakangan ni, terasa macam ada mild-medium earthquake berlaku in my life, dari segi mental, physical, emotion. Alhamdulillah, spiritual tak tergoncang sangat. 2-3 hari ni, badan macam nak demam + sakit tekak yg amat (tak sukenya summer USA ni huhu). Emotion pulak lari bila memikirkan course ChemSep summer ni bakal membahagiakan or men'doomed'kan Cgpa. Mood pun melayang2 balik ke malaysia, nasib baik tak homesick lagi je. Harapnya immune system cepat sembuh so that risk nak kena swine flu tu low. Doakan yg terbaik for me, ye rakan2...

It's too devastating...to let go of beloved things, feelings...
it's painful to imagine, what if I can never replace the beautiful items I have now??

I still don't know... =(

...In the Name of ALLAH...


Memory...
...priceless treasure for human beings. Who cannot live with it? No matter long or short term memory, we thrive to remember. Reminiscing beautiful memories, we smile and laugh. Remembering ugly ones, we think it over...and even cry. That's how we live, right? Every time a wonderful event occurs in our life, we always wanna preserve them in whatever forms of convenient stuff for future momentous recollection. Pictures, videos, poems, diaries, DVD, and most importantly, in our own mind. ALLAH has specially created mind, a unique gift to us humans, to differentiate right and wrong, to make decision in life, to think how to survive, to serve HIM as khalifa.

On the other hand, ugly memories, no one wanna think about it. They hurt so much, sometimes use up our energy just to go through with it. People said we live to forget, yet we also forget to live. Tak salah kan ingat semula bad memories; they might hurt us all over again, but we learn from the best and worst. Moga taklah pisang berbuah dua or tiga kali. We learn to be stronger, how to survive in cruel world (It's really painful, but that's why I could live till now). Some even mengabadikan pengalaman sedih masing2 in songs. That way, we could learn from others' as well...

I just finished watching a Japanese series [Zettai Kareshi], about an android falling in love with a human girl. A robot can never has a true heart or an ego, apatah lagi memory. I'm not going to talk about this series here, just wanna share some of the scripts:

[Q: You're a robot, you never have a childhood memories, right?
A: Yes, I never have one.
Q: That's sad, though...]

[Q: To rob away from a robot his emotions, isn't it the same with taking away his life??]

Tu baru robot, kalau manusia camne pulak? Bayangkan what happened bila terlupa some memories, kita ketuk2 kepala, termenung sorang2. Kosongnya hidup bila no memories exist at all. Like an empty eggshell. Fragile and breakable. Look at Alzheimers' patients, they forget most of the valuable memorable experiences they've gone throughout their life. Sedih kan? As observers, we feel sad for them, lebih2 lagi when we're no strangers, we're the one who being forgotten...

So, cherish everything around us, value them when they're still in our grasp, in our sight. Also, cherish other's memories of us. Being remembered by others is meaningful and priceless, especially as good person. After we die, after we are long gone from this world...that's the only way we could still live, in their memories...

...In the Name of ALLAH...

[PROUD] by DBSK/Tohoshinki is my current favorite song, don't misunderstand me when I mentioned the group (yeah, I love + fangirl them), but its lyrics touched my heart very deeply. I dedicated it specially to Ms. Lela Sakinah, you know how our friendship started and I hope it would never end till Jannah...

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[PROUD]


I’m going to pass through quickly
Well I just wonder which season I’ve already passed
I walk passed the scenery I’m already use to seeing
I can’t slip away from the far away memories alone like this

So that I don’t lost the place that I go to…
That time I met you

On this street, I met you by chance
Even now I don’t forget, from that day on
Everything, like the sad things, the things I carried in anxiety, everything
Through your warmth changes into memories
Proud of your love

The two shells I picked up
Once again the miracle of being able to meet you
If you let me be by your side
The inside of my heart will begin to have kind feelings

Even if a violent rain is falling
Even in strong winds

I will protect this love
If you are here then surely I can get over this
Because I am beginning to be able to think like this, so that I never loose this hand
Let’s always look towards the important times

On this street, we met by chance
Even now I don’t forget, from that day forward
Living, believing, will this is change into happiness
Forever, let’s walk together
Proud of your love


...tHanKs dEaR...

...In the Name of ALLAH...

This year is my 1st time i'm having summer in USA!
Not much comment, though. Chemical Separation class + lab are tough indeed...
I work as a Beginning Japanese 1 notetaker right now, MTWR 5-7 pm...it's not hard at all, so sometimes I find daydreaming during the class is relaxing and sleepy...hehe. yeah, kerja tetap kerja, duit masuk Insha-ALLAH...

While I'm here, sangat mahu berjalan melancong. But so far, no rezki yet. huhuhu...
Can't wait to go back to Malaysia in 4 weeks! Moga2 tak kena kuarantin at airport, moga2 batuk sekarang cepat sembuh...ameenn...

...In the Name of ALLAH...


May 2009 is ending, today...
there has been a lot happening this month, but i didn't blog much about it, ね?ほんとうにごめんね。。。currently i'm very much into Japanese, unfortunately i don't have a partner to talk with right now bcoz ecah has gone back to malaysia this morning...oh malaysiaaaa~ ok ok in another 5 weeks!

so, what are the highlights of this month? let's see...
(+) end of Spring quarter =D
(+) end of nightmarish grip of Organic Chemistry!
(+) got jobs for Summer & Fall quarters already...alhamdulillah
(+) arrival of J-star
(+) endless obsession to my KJJ & tvxq
(+) sweet 21 to ME! i'm old already...
(-) moving out from Park Point
(-) Midwest '09 was cancelled
(-) because item above, my California trip is cancelled too
(+) spent 3 cool days at Frances & John's cottage
(+) first time kayaking (too much of my 1st timer since i've been in USA)
(+) i discovered how much i love & treasure my friends when they were going back home, sent me cute msg from abroad, played games & spent time together
(-) when 1 of us returned to our Mighty Creator on my very own birthdate, the sad news really pinned me down on how small & filthy i am

(+) when i cry, i know i have true supporters, thanks a lot!
(+) all these (+) & (-) combinations made me stronger to live another day...

...Thank you ALLAH, thank you friends, thank you love...

...In the Name of ALLAH...


A dream,
is an escapade from harsh reality...
a symbol of imagination...
a short story of our own...
a brilliant storyline put to act...
a cute little secret of a lifetime...
an indicator of what type of 'brain' we do have...

Woken up in morning's sunshine,
a beautiful dream smash-breaker...
but I am relieve...
to be still getting chance to live another minute...
and to see another meaningful day...
Alhamdulillah ya Rabb...


...In the Name of ALLAH...

It is final week of Spring quarter. In the midst of studying, finishing up lab notebook and lab report, a loud knock appeared to come from our front door. I looked around, there were 4 people in this house including me, and the disturbance seemed to be a stranger! Dla and Tira went to answer the mysterious knock, and it was a postman delivering something to someone. "Package, untuk Kina." As soon I heard that, my heart beat rapidly. "Is it...??" I extended my neck for clearer view of that little box in Dla's hand. "Hong Kong mari," those words made me squealed in no second. Three pairs of eyes stared at me with wide curiousity. My sweaty hands grabbed the precious package and my eyes confirmed it was indeed for me. Hot blood rushed to my face, and more squeals shot from my mouth. Sorry, I couldn't help it. I opened the package as fast as I could and there were them, lying peacefully in the bottom of the box. I couldn't believe it, this package was supposed to reach me after 2 weeks and it was barely a week since its shipping date. I couldn't hide my happiness anymore as my fingers took out them one by one. Three other faces started to make a frown and slowly turned to a slight scowl. "Ko beli Jaejoong ke??", "Ni mesti ada apa2 kaitan dgn DBSK, kan??" I could only answered them with a laugh. Hahaha! I don't care anymore. As long as I got what I wanted, I am HAPPY.

Thanks baby, you really made my day today. It's my awesome and brilliant day...because of you...now I could smile like I never smile before...


P/S: Sorry, pardon me to anyone who will scowling2 after reading this, I'm too happy right now! ^___^

...In the Name of ALLAH...

Time flies...
i never expect this academic year is going to end very soon...but well, it's a good feeling... spring is now dancing, summer is coming, next would be fall's turn, and then another winter...my life in USA, oh my...it's becoming shorter & shorter! i should cherish all things here more often...

Aigoooo...... ほんとうにざんねんですね!

nevertheless, i am counting down a few things on my soon-to-be-expected list:

1) 3 hours to go => last MolecBio lab, and all subjects!
2) 1 day 6 hours to go => Japanese Final exam --- おつかれ、ナナちゃん!
3)2 days to go => Exam 3 MolecBio & Microbio
4) 2 days 4 hours to go => last karate class!
5) 2 days 15 hours to go => weekend! hehe....of course
6) 8 days to go => yeah, i might go to Midwest Games after all...might be, eventho Illinois ade swine flu...erkkkk, MARA tak bagi pegi sana la!
7) 9 days to go => officially end of quarter!
8) 11 days to go => California trip!
9) roughly 13 days to go => much anticipated mysterious package special for me! yay!!! haha mystery la sgt
10) about 2 weeks from now => moving out from Park Point...sob sob sob
11) what is it like, more than a month away => Malaysia mari! i'm going home!

yeah, i just listed almost everything but what am i dying for are only No. 8 & 9. especially No. 9. Haha...come to me baby...come come...make me smile like i've never smile before~

pray for me and my friends all the best in our Final exams soon, may ALLAH bless us in RIT & all other colleges always... ずっと、ずっと。。。

...In The Name of ALLAH...

100% petikan from someone's blog...read it and ponder...

Dapat kita lihat dari permasalahan ini bahawa konteks menutup aurat ini harus dilihat dengan kadar yang lebih luas seperti yang telahpun dibahaskan oleh para ulama’ tentang batasan aurat dan pakaian muslimah yang seharusnya melambangkan ciri peribadi seorang muslimah sejati.Perbahasan berkenaan sama ada tudung muslimah itu patut labuh atau berbentuk tiga segi hanyalah skop yang kecil berbanding bagaimana cara penutupan aurat itu seharusnya diimplikasi secara keseluruhannya supaya menepati roh syariat yang sebenar.Oleh yang demikian,marilah kita melihat beberapa gelaran jenis tudung yang boleh kita lihat dalam realiti masyarakat hari ini yang perlu diperbetulkan.:-

1.Tudung Mickey Mouse
-Pemakaian tudung yang hanya menutup bahagian rambut dan kepala tanpa menutup kedua-dua telinga.Barangkali untuk menunjukkan subang atau apa-apa perhiasan. Pemakaian yang lebih teruk ialah apabila tudung tersebut dililit sehingga menampakkan leher.
2.Tudung Lilit
-Jenis tudung ini jika dilihat telah menutup keseluruhan kepala termasuk telinga tetapi tidak dilabuhkan menutup dada dan hanya dililitkan di leher sahaja.Kriteria menutup dada tidak dipenuhi seolah-olah ingin menayangkan kurniaan yang tidak diberikan kepada kaum lelaki.
3.Tudung See Through
-Salah satu jenis tudung yang popular ini banyak dilihat di merata tempat,kain tudung yang nipis menampakkan leher dan telinga walaupun telah menutup lengkap.Lebih teruk jika tidak memakai anak tudung kerana ianya seperti tiada beza dengan mereka yang tidak bertudung.
4.Tudung Jambul
-Pemakiaan jenis ini banyak dipromosikan dalam drama-drama Melayu yakni menutup separuh rambut di bahagian belakang dengan membiarkan yang depannya tersembul keluar seperti jambul unta.

5.Tudung Singlet
-Tudung yang sempurna tetapi dengan hanya memakai lengan pendek menyebabkan aurat dan lain-lain perhiasan yang sepatutnya ditutup daripada menjadi tatapan umum.Tiada kelongaran hukumtentang penutupan aurat di kawasan awam hatta hanya untuk bersukan.

6.Tudung Saji
-Sekajap pakai,sekejap tidak.Tudung atau lebih tepat dikatakan selendang yang hanya menjadi perhiasan leher .Boleh dilihat di kenduri-kenduri kematian yang mana selendang tersebut akan turun dan naik diangkat si pemakai seolah-olah menjadikannya seperti tudung mengikut keperluan situasi.

Inilah serba sedikit pemakaian tudung yang kurang sempurna yang boleh kita lihat di kalangan muslimah yang perlu diperbetulkan bagi menepati roh syariat yang sebenar sekaligus menggapai hikmah disebalik penetapan kewajiban menutup aurat. Sesungguhnya Rasulullah telah bersabda :
“Pada akhir umatku nanti akan ada wanita-wanita yang berpakain namun (hakikatnya) telanjang. Di atas kepala mereka seperti pundak unta. Kutuklah mereka karena sebenarnya mereka adalah kaum wanita yang terkutuk.”
(At-Thabrani Al-Mujamusshaghir : 232)

Selain itu ada juga muslimah bertudung di kalangan kita yang memakai seluar jeans dan sebagainya sehingga menampakkan susuk tubuh mereka dan alasan kepada pemakaian tersebut tidak lebih hanya sekadar untuk menjalani rutin harian.Inilah kejayaan musuh Islam apabila perkara ini ummat Islam menganggapnya sesuatu perkara yang biasa dan remeh dalam masyarakat.Perkara yang dianggap biasa ini menular dalam pemikiran masyarakat sehingga konsep penutupan aurat yang sempurna itu dicabuli dengan mudah.Mereka yang berseluar sedikit sebanyak merasakan kain tudung yang menutup dada tidak padan sehingga terpaksa melilitkan tudung mereka supaya ia nampak padan dan cantik dikenakan dengan seluar panjang tersebut sedangkan ia hanyalah pandangan mata kasar mereka yang dikaburi syaitan.Pemakain seluar ini bukan sahaja menyerupai kaum lelaki tetapi ia juga menyerupai wanita bukan Islam dalam berpakaiaan.

Wujud juga muslimah yang keluar daripada bilik atau rumah mereka dengan mengenakan wangi-wangian yang berlebihan sehingga dapat menarik perhatian orang ramai terutamanya lelaki sedangkan larangan dalam hal ini telahpun jelas.

Dari Abu Musa Al-Asyari bahwasannya ia berkata : Rasulullah bersabda : “Siapapun wanita yang memakai wewangian, lalu ia melewati kaum laki-laki agar mereka mendapatkan baunya, maka ia adalah pezina.”

(Al-Hakim II/396 dan disepakati oleh Adz-Dzahabi).
Lihatlah betapa kerasnya ancaman dari baginda s.a.w dalam hal ini,jika amaran tegas dari baginda s.a.w menegah pemakaian wangi-wangian oleh muslimah apabila ingin ke masjid apetah lagi jika keluar dari rumah atas sebab lain yang menyebabkan terpaksa melewati yang bukan mahram.Jika persoalan timbul di kalangan muslimah bau wangian yg tidak keterlaluan, dibenarkan atau tidak.Hendaklah kita merujuk semula kepada hadith-hadith yang berkaitan dengannya.Saya tidak menafikan banyak hadith-hadith menunujukkan petunjuk yang jelas bahawa baginda s.a.w sendiri sukakan wangi-wangian antaranya ialah:-
“Barangsiapa yang diberi harum-haruman, maka janganlah dia menolaknya, sesungguhnya ia itu ringan bebannya (ringan dibawa) dan harum baunya.”
(Shahih riwayat Ahmad, Nasa’i, Muslim dan Abu Dawud dari jalan Abu Hurairah)
Tetapi perlulah diketahui bahawa hadith di atas adalah terlalu umum untuk dibandingkan hadith-hadith yang khusus menyatakan muslimah tidak sepaptunya keluar dengan memakai wangi-wangian yang berlebihan sehingga menarik perhatian bukan mahram.
“Siapa sahaja perempuan yang memakai minyak wangi kemudian keluar ke masjid nescaya tidak diterima sholatnya sehingga dia mandi terlebih dahulu (membersihkan dirinya daripada wangi-wangian tersebut).”
(Shahih riwayat Ibnu Majah dari jalan Abu Hurairah)
Daripada hadith di atas jelas jika pergi ke masjid pun telah dilarang memakai wangi-wangi apetah lagi keluar berjalan-jalan dan sebagainya.Contohnya di dalam Surah Al-Israa’ ayat 23 yakni arahan dari Allah S.W.T bahawa kita dilarang menyebut ‘ah’ pada kedua ibu bapa maka maksud lainnya ialah apetah lagi jika kita memarahi atau memukul kedua ibu bapa.Maka larangan memukul atau memarahi parents adalah lebih keras.Begitu juga dengan contoh di atas.Sememangnya ia satu hokum yang agak berat dirasakan muslimah kini tetapi perlaksanaannya memerlukan ketaqwaan yang jelas dalam mengikuti perintah Allah dan Rasul s.a.w.Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk hambaNya.Larangan iniu tidaklah hanya diaplikasi kepada kaum muslimah sahaja hatta kaum muslimin yang memakai wangi-wangian yang boleh menyebabakn orang ramai tertarik dengannya juga mendapat ancaman yang sam daripada hadith-hadith di atas kerana perbuatan sedemikian boleh menimbulkan fitnah.

Bagi pemakaian deodorant atau bedak ia mestilah dibezakan dengan jelas tentang pemakain ketiga-tiga jenis tersebut baik wangi-wangian (perfume), deodorant, dan bedak.Ketiga-tiga mekanisma ini memainkan peranan yang berbeza.Deodorant boleh diklasifikasikan sebagai “ubat” yang menghilangkan bau badan yang kurang menyenangkan sehingga membuatkan seseorang itu rasa rendah diri apabila berhadapan dengan orang ramai..Maka jika ini tujuan si pemakai maka ia adalah dibenarkan.Begitu juga dengan penggunaan bedak, bau bedak adalah tidak kekal dan ia sekadar untuk sementara..Tetapi,jika bau bedak atau deodorant tersebut kekal lama maka ianya tiada beza dengan wangi-wangian(perfume) justeru ia adalah dilarang kerana ia membawa kepada hukum asal pemakaian wangi-wangian tersebut.Kita perlu lihat kepada tujuan asal hukum tersebut yakni,pemakaian wangi-wangian adalah untuk mencegah dari menarik perhatian bukan mahram sehingga ia boleh menimbulkan fitnah.Fitnah yang akan menyebabkan diri si pemakai dilihat dari bawah hingga ke hujung kepala dan kemudian berlakunya satu transformasi dalam adrenalin mereka yang menghidunya.Maka sesungguhnya Islam melarang sesuatu itu bersebab dan demi kebaikan semua pihak.

Akhir kata,Islam telahpun menetapkan etika berpakaian dan konsep menutup aurat dengan jelas supaya dapat dijadikan panduan dan untuk membezakan antara ummat Islam dan yang bukan Islam. Pemikiran yang disuntik dengan anasir-anasir dari musuh Islam ini sedikit sebanyak menghakis imej Islam yang sebenar dalam cara berpakaian.Tidak kira seorang muslimah itu bertuudng labuh atau tiga segi,selagi ia menepati maksud ayat “dan hendaklah mereka menutupkan kain kudung kedadanya, dan janganlah menampakkan perhiasannya” maka ia tidaklah menjadi persoalan besar.Apa yang perlu difikirkan ialah berkenaan pemahaman konsep menutup aurat yang disalah fahami kebanyakan muslimah hari ini sehinggakan penutupan aurat tersebut menjadi tidak sempurna.Apakah tujuan asal pakaian tersebut?Adakah untuk mendekatkan diri kepada Allah s.w.t dengan menurut perintahNya atau untuk mencari lirikan mata masyarakat yang hanya bersifat sementara?Renung-renungkanlah.
Wallhua’lam.
Ibn Yusof
24 Ogos 2007 / 6 Sya’ban 1428
2:15 a.m
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