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...In the Name of Allah the Almighty...


OMG. perut da start pelik2. asam pedas tirah sangat mencabar. very spicy yet とてもおいしいですよ。Yummm sangat layannnn~

tgh melagho 5 min b4 start study orgo chem. exam's tomorrow! and i haven't finish reading everything yet! oh my~


time2 ni la my mood to watch movies tetiba menjenguk. haish~

...In the Name of Allah...


it's snowing today

~heavy sigh~

winter comes very early this year. unlike last year, it snowed in mid november. now? eh hello~ it's still october! i hate cold *sigh again* winter depression is waiting for me. i know it would come and haunt me each winter. haiyaa how would my life would turn into this chillybreezy season???

oh well...not everything is depressing actually. i already got some happening plans ahead.
here's my h a p p y list:

• NYC trip this fall break! (again? nahh it's okay. i'm gonna pusing2 all around NYC & stalk every inch streets. who knows what i might bump into?? Beware Uppersiders... X O X O )
• FLORIDA trip in winter break! (roller-coaster & theme parks! my long craves~)
• Rockband 2 jamming (c'mon guys! let's rockin'!)
• Watching fav & never-seen movies (obviously not SAW!)
• Girls sleepover (Yay! Pijama time + pillow talk!)
  

WOW can't wait for those! Woodbury outlets, here i come!


P/S: got exams tomorrow & friday, also next tuesday! pray 4 me okay! amiinn...
also, sedekahkan al-Fatihah to arwah Kandaq's dad. may God bless his soul. Insha-Allah...

it's already monday?? OMG. still feels like weekend.

since morning up till now, few things happened. just feel to write them down.
here they are:

• missed Orgo lecture. again. just bcoz i woke up with aches throughout my whole body, tak larat nak bangun. aduii saketnye badan. ni sume sebab overworking out last saturday. dla, me & tira da mcm penguin pon *i wonder why kentang lgsung tak saket*
• not only me, dla & kentang. tira also missed her 8am microb class. hahaha.
• still can't get rid of my shopping mood. wanna buy RIT sweater but none really fulfill my taste T___T
• received my snapfish pics. so0oo happy! now, a photo album to buy! >.<
• bought myself mocha frappucino. after 2 months w/out any coffee....aaAahhHhh i'm blessed~

can't wait for some other things soon!
oh not all! got important to-do list:

• 2 exams (thursday & friday)
• 1 recitation paper
• 1 orgo chem lab report
• 1 more exam next tuesday!

urghhh. pray me success! amiin....

ciao!

OMG. very tired of getting in two sports in one single evening. with every effort to beat the opponents, of coz they drained out all my energy in my body *well, obviously not the energy to type these all here* LOL

dodgeball game among MySA should have started by 2.30pm. eventho me, dila, and shah kentang almost missed the bus to gleason circle @ 2.52pm (good warm-up run though), it still hadn't started. but good news. many people showed up. 4 teams were set up. i'm in team C with hawa, shah, azlina & jijoh. how come most freshmen got into 1 same team? haih. we lacked 2 ppl compared to other teams so we recruited din & ina. nice~ well...the game went pretty good. Team D with Joe as the strongest member won the whole game. my team? haha no comment. as long as we had fun, it's okay right? lol. but still, the thrown balls hurt me lots. huu~

after filling out some empty stomachs with hawaiian pizza, i continued with badminton. wow it's been a while since my last match. pao, tira, shah kentang, asip & jijie also in the game. later dila showed up. i paired with kentang and lose to tira & pao. Booooo... bluhh nevermind, it's just a chillin' out game. but very tired okay!

results:

1. got a bruise at left knee
2. sweat
3. slight headache
4. kaki melecet

i'm still satisfied, though. oh today saw Bari dating with gf on bus. hehehe. siap ko bari.
tomorrow's gonna swim! so0ooo excited! *wink3*

Today i went shopping. Yay! After 3weeks just being in RIT, at last.....i went out to release my stress. actually first intention is to accompany Tira to buy a new SWEATER (finally!!) and a coat or bubble jacket at Burlington Coat. for winter la katakan...da lama plan nak kuar same2 nih so sangat excited! also, we were gonna watch movie! in fact...two movies...SAW V & HSM3: Senior Year. premiere day of both~ yippiiee~

after Orgo lecture and tira's check over her microb, we went to the mall. first thing, we attacked Friendly's for some meal. OMG. i ate Royal Banana ice-cream (of coz i shared with tira). well...i admit it's quite delicious hehe...with the presence of banana slices there. at least, i don't eat only ice-cream and ice-cream only. then, bungkus2 for the movies later. heh

after that.........

of coz SHOPPING TIME! we went to AE and usha2 this particular coat...waaaa very nice maa. i almost wanna buy it. but it's too short. huu... then burlington chill session. it's been a while i've been here. i bought a new red coat! finally my dream come true! tira just chillin' out with some coats but she never buy one. sheeessshh. Manche called and asked us to watch SAW V together. but sorry dudes, couldn't make it. later, met up with Pao, Joe and his apprentice Shah at AE. we made tira bought coat the one we usha2 before, and a bubble jacket! nicely done tira! for me, i got a new AE white sweater...at last i buy one at AE. haha. so0oo happy.

then, we rushed to Regal Cinema and bought tickets. SAW V @ 5.25pm. HSM3: Senior Year @ 7.45pm. ok. SAW V was very horrid! disaster time for me, tira and pao. just watch it yourself. can only say that i felt my body was cut into two and head rolled down. UGH!!! but then, jiwang hours for us three. opss... maybe for joe too. LOL. there was a birthday party children troop watched together. i've never watch a Disney movie in a cinema. very kanak2 time okayy. sangat ramai kanak2 riang tepuk tangan every and each time Troy Bolton aka Zac Efron appeared on the screen. even boys. haiyaaaaaa. sangat gay okay. we continued shopping at walmart later. then, went home @ 11pm by cab.


Result from today:

• Positive side = i got everything i wish to have. so happy! esp my red coat~ la la laa
• Negative side = okay. i spent more than $300 for today only. including my online shopping of external harddrive. ZOMG. *seb bek duet elaun baru masuk T__T*
• Bright side = I'm happy. Totally happy. went out getting what i longed to have, chillin' out with cool friends, almost puked + jiwang2 in movies. eventho i spent 5x exceeding my normal spending, i don't even wanna care. bcoz...

....I'M HAPPY....


P/S: shopping therapy is cool...indeed!!!

...In the Name of Allah...


I'm soo00ooo down right now...

there were tonnessss of awful and terrible things happening in my life in the past few days...and TODAY too! i hate myself! most of them are my own fault...and now i couldn't anything to stop them! disaster....Disaster....DISASTER!!!

what would happen to my life right here right now???


idk...i can never predict future...but i know i have to strive my best to achieve what best. being kiasu?? yeah that's one solution...but i'm no genius. huhuhu. rase nak nanges. rase nak balek malaysia. rase nak hug mama! huwaaaa!~~ rase nak hug dylan + cole sprouse juge! *erk!*

i'm gonna let these feelings all out to the world...if only i can ScReaAMMM right now....

oh my...



note to self: be patient my dear self...i know you can do it... (quoting a little advice from a friend, thanks!)

...In the Name of ALLAH...


Parappapapa...i'm lovin' it...

remember this song? i heard it over and over again during DC trip since Tyrah sang it everytime she saw a McD restaurant. i bet she really miss a Happy Meal set. hurmmm talking about McD...i remembered something. haha not telling! =P

okay...so now i proceed to DC trip. how was it? kinda nice. it was my 2nd trip (1st was during last post-muktamar). honestly i prefer my 1st trip without any good reasons. but still, i loved this 2nd trip! i gotta know maaannnyyy new people, and of coz, meeting my good old friends. missed them much. visiting places, taking pictures, eating lemang rendang satay briyani etc, socializing, discussing and inferencing. in other words, some gossips are otw...haha x o x o. too bad i left my charger. my cam almost died soon after the open house at the Embassy ended. i mean...come on!~ it's only 2nd day! byk tempat x pegi lagi! need to rely on others' cam. duhh so sad. we went to washington monument or as we called it pensel tajam. pics here and there. oh hate my jumping pics. i looked so horrid! ughh won't ever do it again! then...walked to national WW2 (if not mistaken) park, searching for NEW YORK stone, pic again. almost played hide-seek there. haha. then again.... walked to pakcik brahim lincoln memorial. i love the scenery here. the pond, reflections, goose and cute getiks squirrels. oh my...totally missed my kampung! next, continued our walk to White House till last 100m. won't walk nearer anymore since it's getting late and our cars were parked far. walked and walked again while gossiping with mursyid. at carpark, hey it's already sunset! pics again! ecah and mior did capture a very scandalous and juicy pic with sunset background. hahaha it's nothing really. but it would make a very well jiwang novel cover. uuu~ and another gayyyy pic of jiji + mior. i think they didn't upload it in facebook. try check it out! rotfl

at night, open house time! we went to officers' house eating + socializing + feeling like our own home. lol. at cik siti's, joe and tyrah taught fatih vandy our 'siler pendekkan ayat anda' language. it was a bad time for jijie to talk using the language. sorry jie =P next, ritians+ ohio stateians lepaking and eating kueh raye + keropoks at pn. anora's, . then we konvoied to ustaz abdul rahman's. same thing. eating dodol durian (uuuu~), mihun goreng, kueh raye sambil2 foruming with ustaz. jijie sgt x bole bla ok. he started intro like "ye saye azizi drpd rit, saye ade keraguan utk diajukan kpd ustaz". sengal. then everyone followed his lead. ustaz pun layan ajer. sronok2. soon returned to en. aminuddin's house. baby his daughter just got home. lepaks again + supper eating at kitchen with new refugees from ohio state, before went up (for gurls) and down (for boys) to sleep. nice sleep, i had to sleep on a lembik airbed, though. tak pasan tersepak muncung air nozzle. huhu my own fault.

on the final morning...had fabulous breakfast by auntie mala which was completely like a lunch. taufiq (K2 hacc) and jab (belang hacc) dropped themselves here too. after some good-bye pics in living room and in front of cars, we drove off to final visit around DC. taufiq and jab led our way to smithsonian museums, not far from u.s. capitol and monument. we visited air & aerospace museum, looking around in awe at those down-to-scale replicas of rockets, airplanes, aerospace apparatus etc. hey, there's space food too! nice. even taufiq who's lived in DC for 2 years, jakun with the displays. then, bought some souvenirs and beli bekal biryani + sheesh kabob, and headed back home>>> RIT. what made me happy?? i rode a carousel there! after more than 10 years, finally i got chance to feel like a kid again (' ',) thanx dila for the treat (^__^)

during returning trip, my musim tengkujuh (as Tyrah called it) visited me again. but yep actually...i'm lovin' this moment. it's not that i'm very happy for these things to happen. yet, i learnt something....a lot. well we had this game: Tyrah as the judge, and the rest of us were prosecutors and defendants. we could ask any question to anyone in the car, then we owe one answer to the person. the game went kinda slowly. so we ended it and started an open discussion session and shared our stories. haa amik kau. direct trus. segan? well...at first, of coz! x usah cakap la. but it was nice in the end. result: i'm relieved. now i can lean over to my friends here and tell them what bother me most without much worrying being laughed at. bcoz they're great friends. sharing is indeed caring...and most importantly, what happened in that car, stayed in the car. ehehe *wink3*

now, cars had been returned. back at home again. school again. what a life.

but just remember; as long as my soul resides in this body.... as long as i still live on bumi Allah, forever a student.


P/S: see pao? i can get over it. in some ways, i did.

...In the Name of Allah...


i'm not emo. not at you. i'm just miserable.

forget that. that's only temporary feeling *exactly that's what i hope for!!*

so, just got back from Haunted Hay Ride. it's fun! at least, it scared me a bit. such a thrill after hell weeks. OMG. the 'hantu2' were crazy. i thought the hayride was not bad, quite creepy especially the shock therapy. uuuu~ but i hate the haunted house! it scared me out of my life!! me, adam, kenya and asmaa were left by ourselves at the back and 1 incident happened. haha! it's quite funny + embarrassing actually. poor kenya...sorry girl.

the car ride to that place really gripped me with awesome moment during road trip last winter. i miss road trip. really awesome experience.
owh hey, tomorrow i'm going to DC! almost forgot about that, heh. ops i haven't packed! oh whatever~ hope the trip would make me get over it.

nice nite.

P/S: i suddenly wanna watch SAW movies. heh

...In the Name of Allah...


i miss you...

yep that's exactly what i feel now. missing. everything in my life. my mom, my dad, my family, my zufairy! in better word, I'm HOMESICK.

it's ridiculous, i know. i've been here for 2 years yet i still crave for mama's warm hug, sight of babah, laughter and screaming of my bros & sis, and zufairy's cute cry. thinking of him makes me sad. i spent time with him in only 2 weeks, and he's growing bigger and bigger each day! why must my cam broken at that time?? now i only have less than 10 pics together with him, my precious love. i miss him too much. looking at his pictures almost getting tears into my eyes. well, it did. he's very big and chubby right now. but his cry is still the same. whenever i called home and he's crying at that time, i would smile and laugh to hear that. i'm so happy to know that he's over there and letting me listen to his 'gediks' cries. once back at home, i was so excited to see him sleeping so peacefully, so i pinched his cheeks and shook his round stomach. he woke up and cried while i got up and ran away from the 'crime scene'. my sis thought it's time for him to nyotnyot susu, but i know exactly what happened. I'M THE ONE who woke him up. HAHAHA! i don't care!! as long as he woke up and menggetiks with his hands and soft sighs. i miss those time!

note to aimi and napie ---> get a baby! FAST!

this is all because ecah. after last night's dinner, four of us (me, dila, tyra & ecah) got into a debate (it's not a fight okay) about perspective. at first, something about chinese being 'tak senonoh' was brought up. then ecah terasa. next, who knows. at last, ecah cried because of her trauma being bullied by other malay students in middle school just because she's a chinese. duh. so racist. i felt so guilty for getting her in that hot debate. in comforting her, i felt like i was so old. such like a mom comforting her lil daughter. heh. since that moment, suddenly i was homesick. wuaaaaa.

i called home, no answer. i called mama at school, she's in class. luckily, she's 5 minutes away to finish class. so we chatted and chatted for almost 1 hour, with kids' voices as background. now i miss my middle school's time. it's so fun to talk to mama after so long. then i called my big sis. she's back at teaching and zufairy is taken care of by her neighbors. my sis said," rindunye kat zufairy bila anta die kat umah orang laen." that's a mom's intuition. but hey, i got an auntie's intuition!

hi!

different mood today, as you can see....
last nite was a DISASTER! i'll 'rejam lembing' and 'bazooka' my upstairs neighbors next party time...we'll see~

today, is much cooler and calmer. i don't know what had happened. eventho i slept on couch with cell bio textbook in right hand and Mr. Shinbi in left hand. yep my back hurts T____T maybe i dreamt something nice but i couldn't remember it well. owh well....

i need to finish studying cell bio today. at least i should read all the slides. the book is much too thick and compact with facts (some craps too)!! most importantly i cannot flopped in this exam marks as the previous one. no way i'm letting it happen! praying Allah is offering me the best memory and concentration for this exam. Amiin ya rabbal 'alamiin...

nice day, y'all!

~may Allah bless u guys~

it's my miserable night. totally a big one.

here i am, trying to study cell bio the best i can and what could i feel and hear are loud voices and THUMP THUMP THUMP from upstairs. okayyy. here, my letter for u!!!

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hello upstairs neighbors!!

damn it. don't ya ever think this block is only about u and ur cliques! even if it's midnite, there are still other people in adjacent apartments sleeping and such! think about us too! and i'm studying!~~~

DUHHHHHH

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there goes all my interest in studying. instead, im cursing.

nite!

hi.

to myself.

i know this blog is for pleasure only but i don't care. i need something to shoo away some complexity in myself right now. bear with it. even though me myself would read this maybe in weeks, or months from now. maybe years...so wuteva