...In the Name of ALLAH...
it's 2.40 am...and i'm still not asleep...
i returned home and there they were, mounts of unread emails and notifications in facebook. got tagged in a note from faraway pao..."the girls i miss"...aawwhhhh, somehow i found it hilarious that she missed my unexpected laugh when watching funny videos. i thought it's annoying for some people. LOL. starting from that moment, my heart told me, 'hey, you too miss your friends a lot, don't you'. subsequently, i sent a msg to my best friend, ym msgs to several other buddies, got a long call from old girlfriend. i miss you guys, my dear friends...here and there...
2:38 AM |
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...In the Name of ALLAH...
2 weeks in Malaysia already.
i just went back from summer training camp (STC) at batang kali selangor last weekend, as an ajk. truthfully i didn't have any slight idea how to handle a camp at a campsite/hutan area. pergi ikut flow je la, bak kata orang. sampai2 aje, tengok2 dinner dah tersedia. well, biasa la kan bila makanan sedap dah terhidang depan mata, semangat pun naik la berkobar-kobar. thanks a lot makcik2 pakcik2 catering yg masak + sediakan meals ktorg, cayalah! overall, camp ni berjalan lancar dan dapat respon yg agak baik eventho ada problem datang menjenguk2 jugak. i like dr. adnan's kuliah subuh and tazkirah maghrib. terkesan sungguh la dengan elaboration beliau about ummul-quran which is surah al-fatihah, and kisah para sahahat rasulullah s.a.w. kalau nak cerita kat sini, maaf i didn't remember all details. also, sangat happy with ukhuwah among sisters yg hadir since most dah kenal2 masing2. yg jauh dapat didekatkan, yg sedia dekat makin rapat hatinya, insha-Allah. we played simple games, but really havoc. what best, jmpa geng2 satu kepala korea + jepun, apa lagi tak usah cakaplah. kami serasi bersama. cewahh...since it's already late for me to go back home on sunday evening after camp, i went back to my uncle's house in puchong, selangor. immediately i sent proposal to some friends for a friendly meet somewhere in kl. discuss punya discuss (sampai credit turun almost rm10...lol), jmpa la khalis fakhirah mior joe yesterday at midvalley. also terserempak with bo0n and nass. imagine this, every 2 hours we looked for food. first, laksa shack (sedap woo laksa johor kat situ), then delifrance (share2 soup + baguette), and finally secret recipe (some had dinner, some had cakes/brownies). really really enjoyed those times la, sangat sedap and full though money pun flowing out like air paip kat toilet the gardens's. got myself a book, The Keeper, at mph. then, got my eyes on this 1 Guess bag, red color. adorable, mior pun approve. but alahaiii...lagi mahal than USA, tapi bila search kat online store takde pulak huhu...
now, back at home in front of my lappie. 103 unread in inbox, and ada news tak best from mara, kena pulak mail academic transcript for summer courses. Allah, lupa!! sigh... then 2 invitations to a summer camp at mersing and a motivation stuff at old school. no confirmation yet, since there would be a family camping trip sometime later. sorry guys, later sikit ok.thinking on how to spend my time in malaysia efficiently, meaningfully....
9:54 PM |
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...In the Name of ALLAH...
*i dedic8 this entry specially to my dear nephew*
khairien zufairy bin muhammad khaizir
born on August 15, 2008 by 2.2 kg. A newborn that brought happiness and gratitude to my dear family, he's the first grandson, first great grandson for my mom's family side, first son, first nephew. I still remember him being all red, small and fragile baby, that it seemed almost impossible for me to hold him in my hands. 2 weeks, and it was time for me to go back to college. That was last summer.
few hours after born
aidilfitri 2008...with his parents
look! he even shows his cute rabbit teeth there!~Grow up, grow up into a good and soleh person, zufairy!~
7:58 AM |
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...In the Name of ALLAH...
i'm home...again...
safe and sound...
without any quarantine...
alhamdulillah...it's good to be back at home again...after going through one of the worst flight i've ever been in, layan turbulence jer 2 jam, lucky i didn't muntah2 bcoz of air sickness up there. flight kali ni sangat lah bosan, rasa macam 2 hari in plane. dengan masknye, dengan sempitnye, sabar je la T___Tbut, again...it's good to be back in malaysia, on the ground not in the air...not to mention durian, mee hailam, nasi ayam, sirap limau, carrot susu....nyum3 msian food is too good to be true! missing RIT? nahhh...maybe i miss USA a little bit...but hey! let's enjoy MALAYSIA first!
call me meet me! haha
7:30 AM |
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...In the Name of ALLAH...
Kebelakangan ni, terasa macam ada mild-medium earthquake berlaku in my life, dari segi mental, physical, emotion. Alhamdulillah, spiritual tak tergoncang sangat. 2-3 hari ni, badan macam nak demam + sakit tekak yg amat (tak sukenya summer USA ni huhu). Emotion pulak lari bila memikirkan course ChemSep summer ni bakal membahagiakan or men'doomed'kan Cgpa. Mood pun melayang2 balik ke malaysia, nasib baik tak homesick lagi je. Harapnya immune system cepat sembuh so that risk nak kena swine flu tu low. Doakan yg terbaik for me, ye rakan2...
9:38 PM |
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It's too devastating...to let go of beloved things, feelings...
it's painful to imagine, what if I can never replace the beautiful items I have now??
I still don't know... =(
2:14 PM |
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...In the Name of ALLAH...
Memory...
...priceless treasure for human beings. Who cannot live with it? No matter long or short term memory, we thrive to remember. Reminiscing beautiful memories, we smile and laugh. Remembering ugly ones, we think it over...and even cry. That's how we live, right? Every time a wonderful event occurs in our life, we always wanna preserve them in whatever forms of convenient stuff for future momentous recollection. Pictures, videos, poems, diaries, DVD, and most importantly, in our own mind. ALLAH has specially created mind, a unique gift to us humans, to differentiate right and wrong, to make decision in life, to think how to survive, to serve HIM as khalifa.On the other hand, ugly memories, no one wanna think about it. They hurt so much, sometimes use up our energy just to go through with it. People said we live to forget, yet we also forget to live. Tak salah kan ingat semula bad memories; they might hurt us all over again, but we learn from the best and worst. Moga taklah pisang berbuah dua or tiga kali. We learn to be stronger, how to survive in cruel world (It's really painful, but that's why I could live till now). Some even mengabadikan pengalaman sedih masing2 in songs. That way, we could learn from others' as well... I just finished watching a Japanese series [Zettai Kareshi], about an android falling in love with a human girl. A robot can never has a true heart or an ego, apatah lagi memory. I'm not going to talk about this series here, just wanna share some of the scripts:[Q: You're a robot, you never have a childhood memories, right?
A: Yes, I never have one.
Q: That's sad, though...]
[Q: To rob away from a robot his emotions, isn't it the same with taking away his life??]
Tu baru robot, kalau manusia camne pulak? Bayangkan what happened bila terlupa some memories, kita ketuk2 kepala, termenung sorang2. Kosongnya hidup bila no memories exist at all. Like an empty eggshell. Fragile and breakable. Look at Alzheimers' patients, they forget most of the valuable memorable experiences they've gone throughout their life. Sedih kan? As observers, we feel sad for them, lebih2 lagi when we're no strangers, we're the one who being forgotten...So, cherish everything around us, value them when they're still in our grasp, in our sight. Also, cherish other's memories of us. Being remembered by others is meaningful and priceless, especially as good person. After we die, after we are long gone from this world...that's the only way we could still live, in their memories...
1:05 PM |
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...In the Name of ALLAH...
This year is my 1st time i'm having summer in USA!Not much comment, though. Chemical Separation class + lab are tough indeed...I work as a Beginning Japanese 1 notetaker right now, MTWR 5-7 pm...it's not hard at all, so sometimes I find daydreaming during the class is relaxing and sleepy...hehe. yeah, kerja tetap kerja, duit masuk Insha-ALLAH...While I'm here, sangat mahu berjalan melancong. But so far, no rezki yet. huhuhu...
Can't wait to go back to Malaysia in 4 weeks! Moga2 tak kena kuarantin at airport, moga2 batuk sekarang cepat sembuh...ameenn...
11:18 AM |
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...In the Name of ALLAH...
May 2009 is ending, today...
there has been a lot happening this month, but i didn't blog much about it, ね？ほんとうにごめんね。。。currently i'm very much into Japanese, unfortunately i don't have a partner to talk with right now bcoz ecah has gone back to malaysia this morning...oh malaysiaaaa~ ok ok in another 5 weeks!so, what are the highlights of this month? let's see...
(+) end of Spring quarter =D(+) end of nightmarish grip of Organic Chemistry!(+) got jobs for Summer & Fall quarters already...alhamdulillah(+) arrival of J-star (+) endless obsession to my KJJ & tvxq(+) sweet 21 to ME! i'm old already...(-) moving out from Park Point(-) Midwest '09 was cancelled(-) because item above, my California trip is cancelled too(+) spent 3 cool days at Frances & John's cottage(+) first time kayaking (too much of my 1st timer since i've been in USA)(+) i discovered how much i love &
treasure my friends when they were going back home, sent me cute msg from abroad, played games & spent time together
(-) when 1 of us returned to our Mighty Creator on my very own birthdate, the sad news really pinned me down on how small & filthy i am(+) when i cry, i know i have true supporters, thanks a lot!(+) all these (+) & (-) combinations made me stronger to live another day......Thank you ALLAH, thank you friends, thank you love...
12:57 AM |
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